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Open Free for All / Strange things are afoot at the Circle K
« on: July 03, 2006, 08:48:00 AM »
I was at the grocery store shopping yesterday and a very weird thing happened.

As I was pushing my cart through the isles I began to notice that a voice had started up speaking over the intercom.  It was a recording of course, but it was being played all over the store.  It was some deep voiced patriotic sounding man talking about America.  At first I dismissed it as a silly 4th of July tribute thing and just listened for a moment.  It became increasingly clear that this "announcement" was more than just a tribute.  What began as stars and stripes forever quickly morphed into a lengthy diatribe about 'freedom' and the "American dream".  This guy went on and on and on....about justice and liberty and just how amazing America was, about how we were better than other nations, historically and otherwise, about how we wouldnt give into the oppression of terrorism.  

I started to get really agitated, I got a feeling in my gut not dissimilar to what Neo might have felt when he woke up from The Matrix.  All the while the guy kept making a point to say "America" over and over.  It just went on and on and on  and got progressively more passionate and agressive.  I looked around to see if i was the only one who was noticing anything and everyone else seemed oblivious.  It was probably the closest Ive ever come to feeling like I just landed in Orwell's 1984.

it was like a full on propoganda nightmare, right there in the friggin grocery store.  I had to go check out immediately because I couldnt stand to hear it anymore.

Anyone else experience this kind of thing before, besides the obvious?

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This seems a little prurient....I mean, whats the difference? There was no "cult-like' if you really consider it. They are all cults, plain and simple.

Like a grand plume of offshoot cults stemming from the the same old time-tested rotten methodology.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Manchurian Candidate
« on: December 05, 2005, 12:02:00 PM »
I watched the last half or so of this movie last night.  I came in on the middle of it by accident and I have to say it clicked something in me.  Almost like I became somewhat paranoid and terrified.  The part where they tell the one guy to kill the other officer, and he just walks over and chokes him with the one guy sitting there watching.  It disturbed the hell out of me.  

I restrained kids or watched them be restrained simply because I was told to.  For no other reason than I was commanded to do so.  I watched kids get clobbered with a blank look on my face and no hope of ever thinking that it was wrong or that I should stop it.  

For the first time last night I think I finally broke through a small part of me that never truly allowed me to see the awfulness of what it is we saw/did in there.  I almost threw up afterwards.  I feel like throwing up now just writing about it. After watching it I felt these wheels turning in my brain that have been long dormant.  Scared the hell out of me.

I am beginning to wonder if I have blocked out more than I orginally suspected.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Friendly neighborhood Meth Lab
« on: November 28, 2005, 10:48:00 AM »
Id like some opinion on this....

Everyone please try to be objective and give your thoughts on what you would do in this situation.

I am almost 99% certain that a neighbor of mine is running a meth lab.  They arent my neighbor proper, but they are down the street and a block over from me.  We live in an unrestricted neighborhood, so the lots are usually very large acerage and its very private.  I have been obeserving the place for several years now and I would be willing to bet my right tit that they have an operation going on in there.  The house is very dilapidated and the yard is always in shambles.  They have several scrawly pit-bulls out in the yard at any given time. This description could fit any old place, but Ill tell you why I think its something more.  The windows are all covered over with heavy material, sometimes boards....they change them every few months or so.  One window on the side of the house stays open all year round, rain or shine and its not broken. There is always huge piles of trash in the yard that they are in a perpetual state of cleaning up and burning, usually only at night.  There seems to be one young man who lives there, and possibly one older gentleman.  The real kicker is the flux of visitors, almost always in groups and almost never the same people or vehicles twice in a row.  They are usually always hanging around by the front gate, or in the yard, and they come and go at all hours.

The younger kid seems to be mid-20s, and looks like something has been eating him from the outside.  His skin is always horrible and he is always dirty or in dirty clothes.

I am not one to call the cops or be a snitch.  But I do worry about the level of danger that one of those deals can present.  If it were to blow up or start leaking some nastiness into the air.  There are alot of families on that street with little ones and it just really bothers me to think something might happen.  Sometimes the people who show up at night there park in the middle of the road or in the oncoming traffic lane, I almost hit a car parked in front of their house in the wrong lane. Its very dark on our streets.

I know I cant be the only one who notices these things, and there is a Harris County Sherriff who lives three houses down from them.  

Would it be fair to at least bring up the issue to the HOA? At least find out if anyone else is concerned rather than trying to get them busted or something?

I know Ill get shit for this, but I am genuinely concerned with the safety issue.  They can snort and huff all they please, but this borders putting others in danger.

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Tacitus' Realm / Is it just me?
« on: November 23, 2005, 01:02:00 PM »
This whole thing about Cheney and the high ups raising funds for Delay and so forth.

Doesnt that just look really BAD?

I mean the guy is a criminal, do they really think that rallying around him improves their credibility?

I just feel all sorts of wrong about this situation.  Comments?

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / LETS DO IT FOR ANIMALS!
« on: November 18, 2005, 11:28:00 AM »
Come on guys, its been so long since we have all had a nice long string of bullshit spew forth from the resident crow-bar wielder.

Lets HEAR IT FOR ANIMALS!

 :nworthy:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / I remember a time in my past when......
« on: November 01, 2005, 11:40:00 AM »
I always was terrified of Past Raps.  Almost as much as Reviews.  If you didnt have a good, juicy past incident to really cry about.....man, you would be big trouble.  And if you didnt cry in the exact manner complimentary to the severity of your past incident....well then you were pushing feelings and that was an excuse to turn a past rap into a confrontational extravaganza.

There were always several phasers who had what I like to call an "Ongoing Incident". These were usually things considered "big" like a rape, or someone dying or molestaion or a bad sexual experience of some sort besides rape. Staff would periodicaly urge them to re-hash the incident if they happened to be in a particulary "bad" place in group.  Like "Look, Christy isnt doing well in group, she must need to deal with her feelings about being raped again".

Most of the time these kids got the staff version of sensitivity about these things, but they could be turned into accusations of dishonesty if you didnt really cry or confess about them properly when asked to do so.  "So-and-so isnt sounding too honest, they must not have completely gotten past their dad dying."  It was just all so insane, like anyone had to do with the other.


The one time I actually cried with real feelings about a past incident, moreso because I was afraid of all the kids from California, but partly because it was embaressing.....I got shredded by a 5th phase girl about not really feeling bad about what I had done.  Even the staff on the stool were speechless after she finished.  They just told me to sit down and acted like I had never been standing.

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Each and every one of us should only be responsible for getting ourselves off.  

Hey guy, dont forget to snag the toilet paper before we get keyed in!

 :wave:

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"...hands went up and people hit the floor, he wasted two kids that ran for the door....."
-Beastie Boys, Paul Revere[ This Message was edited by: Carmel on 2005-10-09 15:46 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Struggle with guilt, was it that bad?
« on: September 11, 2005, 04:24:00 PM »
I have a question, maybe some of you can understand how this feels.

I cant help but feel this weird guilt when I talk about the program, or read others posting.  As if I am questioning, was it REALLY that bad? Was beltlooping REALLY that abusive?  Was it all just lightweight stuff that we may be turning into this horrendous injustice?

Of course, I know the answer to all these questions, save the last one, is yes......it really was that bad.  I just cant seem to shake that almost primal response of shame and guilt I have for saying so, or even reading so.

I have this same problem also with talking about other things in my life that were wrong or abusive.....as if I should not be saying them because they really werent that bad.  Like I feel in my mind that  am trying to blow things out of proportion.  But how do you blow things like molestation out of proportion?  its almost like i am secretly accepting these things inwardly, but trying to play a part outwardly for people who feel worse about what happened to me than I really do.

Even posting on this board, its like I SAY it was awful...but do I really FEEL that it was awful?

Does anyone have this?  Does anyone understand?

  [ This Message was edited by: Carmel on 2005-09-11 13:25 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Goddamn Bully Circus
« on: July 01, 2005, 08:31:00 AM »
Thats what this place is.  So many of you are acting like a bunch of bullying little children.  And you know what?  Its working,

Who the hell would want to post anything personal or emotional anymore on this site for fear of being pounced on?  Its like a sicko little club, you were either IN the program or you werent and if not then your opinion counts for shit....membership revoked.  Its a bunch of sick little insecurity bullshit games and thats it.  

I only see a big fucking circle of bullshit now where people used to have actual discussions.

I am sure Ginger gives two shits about what I think, but if people are going to be called out on the basis of etiquette issues.....she may need to widen her scope a bit.  This IS an open forum, however there are many forums that can be open and still have requirements on the level of respect everyone should maintain.  Ginger if you are upset about your server being leached of of, doesnt it bother you that your forum is becoming nothing but a big long list of fuck yous and eat shits and go rot in hells, not much more?

And everyone who is so protective about their status as a victim of Straight, YOU all especially should practice some self restraint and some respect so that new people might find this site and understand what happened and how to help.

But thats just not what its really about is it?  Its only about feeling powerful in this teeny tiny little world.  Its too bad.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Manipulation
« on: May 25, 2005, 10:08:00 AM »
Anyone remember being told to stop saying "in a minute" or "just a second" or "real quick"?

It was druggie manipulation.  Dont try to manipulate someone into doing something for you by making it sound easy.  

Whats crazy is that it was stupid shit like this that just up and got implemented one day....we were never told to stop saying these things, and then just one day all of a sudden it was anathema.

I wonder sometimes, who it was exactly that was behind this sort of rule conjuring.  It always seemed to be like the executives were more of just outsiders, people who were not taught by anyone else the rules of cult-building.  I would love to know who was truly behind all the insanity there in Dallas.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Does it need to be said?
« on: May 21, 2005, 01:12:00 PM »
?

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Sitting in your pity
« on: February 15, 2005, 11:34:00 PM »
Anyone remember this one?

Always followed by the obligatory "get out of your pity".

This applied to any and all complaints or frustrations about any and everything.

Also classified as a "pat" phrase.  Most likely followed by the "pat" answer..."apply it to yourself"...accompanied by a sharp jabbing motion towards one's forehead.  Unless of course it was a viscious 5th phaser.

[ This Message was edited by: Carmel on 2005-02-15 20:36 ]

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