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Antigen:
--- Quote ---On 2005-11-22 19:53:00, landyh wrote:
hell yea you might as well have used and joined just to have more friends.
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The thought did cross my mind.
--- Quote ---I'm sorry for your trouble.
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Thanks.
--- Quote ---I hope I can get my sister here. She drug me along the first time out of guilt and we were both kidnapped the second. I went home before her and I was so excited when she came home. She ran away that night at 16 and I didn't see her for a very long time by the time my dad found her she was emancipated. So I have some great memories too.
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Oh, that would be great. The more we can really understand how it all started, I think the easier it is to understand it all now.
Do you and your sister get along these days?
The Bible is not my book nor Christianity my profession. I could never give assent to the long, complicated statements of Christian dogma.
--Abraham Lincoln, U.S. President
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Drug war POW
Straight, Sarasota
`80 - `82
landyh:
--- Quote ---On 2005-11-22 20:10:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Landy can you describe how you came to be chosen to lead raps at such a young age? did it have to do wit u cute loks and r u still cute?"
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I think it may have been partly that. I also had a fairly high IQ along with a level of damage and destruction in my life that went further than even I could acknowlege at the time (very extreeme for my age and that point in time). Further on the IQ side of interest is that yes I test out between 136 to 140 but I am also left handed which puts me in the right side of my brain. That had implications for the type of thought of which I am capapable. I deduce through intuition and other deep feelings as much as or more than logic. This cetainly served to help me grasp the program in a certain way. I was often described as precociuous which was probably accurate in many several ways. Sexually, my life experiences and I had the ability to absorb and convey the message of the ptogram in a very adult like manner (people told me this). I think all those things combined together to bring me to lead rap sessions that and the fact that for whatever reason I was capable of doing it confidently and well. I seem to recall that it started with helping Charlie in group but I am not sure though it would explain in part why I remember feeling very close to Charlie. This is all coming from someone who had terribly low self-esteem for lots of reasons ( read my other posts) when he got there. As to being cute I suppose I still (dimples don't go away I guess)elicit that feeling in woman which has been a blessing and a curse. Much of my dating years I would have prefered to have been seen as attractive in a more decidely macho way. But in retrospect cute kept me in enough trouble and still does in some ways :lol: I hope that answers your question. I guess I could add that I am in whole new set of dating years. Aint life grand?
landyh:
--- Quote ---On 2005-11-22 21:06:00, Antigen wrote:
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On 2005-11-22 19:53:00, landyh wrote:
hell yea you might as well have used and joined just to have more friends.
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The thought did cross my mind.
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I'm sorry for your trouble.
--- End quote ---
Thanks.
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I hope I can get my sister here. She drug me along the first time out of guilt and we were both kidnapped the second. I went home before her and I was so excited when she came home. She ran away that night at 16 and I didn't see her for a very long time by the time my dad found her she was emancipated. So I have some great memories too.
"
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Oh, that would be great. The more we can really understand how it all started, I think the easier it is to understand it all now.
Do you and your sister get along these days?
The Bible is not my book nor Christianity my profession. I could never give assent to the long, complicated statements of Christian dogma.
--Abraham Lincoln, U.S. President
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Drug war POW
Straight, Sarasota
`80 - `82"
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My sister and I get along extremely well but don't get to spend near enough time together with her in Ft Lauderdale and me in Orlando. Our relationship is mostly limited to the phone. Regretfully this year the man she ran away from the seed to be with, her husband of 30 years, passed away due to a heart attack. I don't know if she will even have the capacity to face what lies here along with the healing that she is already going through. I hope so but there are some difficult aspects to being here I would suspect for all of us. I know for myself I need to be here at least for a while. I am certainly going to use all my seedling powers to get her here :wink:
GregFL:
Welcome Landy!
I always suspected we would get one of you people that got admitted at 9 years old.
I am so interested in hearing more from you. I often wondered what the hell the parents of these youngsters were thinking.
GregFL:
On 2005-11-22 13:50:00, landyh wrote:
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I like the references but the food thing at the very early Seed was a money thing the way I remember it. They had a kitchen right there in the main room. My second time at st rd 84 I thought the pb and j were still a cost issue. Not sure just the way I remember it."
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Well, that would be "nice" if it were true, but the bare fact is Art Barker received money hand over fist in 73, including 1,000,000 from the government, money from charitable groups, money twice a week from parents, all the food was donated, and even the warehouse in st pete was donated, and the staff was paid a pittence. Money was taken from the open meetings in massive amounts.
So, where was my food since he now had ample money, and why was I eating wet peanut butter sandwhiches along with a small dixie cup of watery cool-aide?
No, the money issue was just a justification, this was part of your "treatment", along with a way to get out of the circumstance by complying, going home and eating your mother's home cooking. Remember those "my mom's _______ is the best in the word, and I can't wait to go home to some home cooking raps?
No, the truth of the matter may be hard to conceive, but the fact is that we were treated this way as a method to break our will.
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