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Home from rehab 30 years after the seed
GregFL:
--- Quote ---On 2004-12-06 13:54:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Fuck off and I mean that politely :flame: "
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Is that your new username?
hehe.
Such anger from such an accomplished seed staffer. You must be proud of yourself.
Robin Martin:
--- Quote ---On 2004-12-06 17:04:00, GregFL wrote:
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On 2004-12-06 13:54:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Fuck off and I mean that politely :flame: "
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Is that your new username? hehe. Such anger from such an accomplished seed staffer. You must be proud of yourself.
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Greg - do you get off pushing others buttons? You need to give Anon a break, OK?
There's enough strife in the world :roll: .
GregFL:
Am I telling people to fuck off?
I don't think so Robin.
Anonymous:
I can remember when I first left the Seed some years ago some of the feelings that I went through.
The first night I left I felt disoriented but at the same time very relieved. I realized that now I could make my own decisions without having to consult with anyone or receive anyone?s approval, but even with this new found freedom, I also was very scared with what the consequences of my actions could bring. After all I had a past in which I had made some major mistakes I was certain that would not survive a second go around.
I also felt that it was very important to my personal growth that I break away from the Seed and do things on my own and after all these years I believe that it was the best thing for me. I believe what caused me to grow the most was my freedom to question what I had been taught, develop things inside of me and discard things that I did not need or just did not apply to me. The one last realization that I made of myself at the Seed was that I did not want to make the Seed my crutch and I did not want to use the Seed to hide from the things I needed to go through to really grow and understand. In spite of all its imperfections the Seed had given me the tools to survive and make something of myself. It was up to me to develop these tools and carry forward with what ever I needed or wanted to do with my life.
I must say this freedom was a double edge sword. During my post Seed years I have also experienced some of my most painful lessons, felt some of the loneliest times I have ever felt and tasted some of my most bitter failures. But in spite of all this my one true success was that I did not fall back into my old ways of killing my pain with drugs like I had done some many times in my past. (I got to confess that there were a couple of especially bitter occasions the thought did occur to me). The one mere fact that I did not fall back to my junkie mentality was the source of my biggest success. From this point I felt that I could build some true and very solid strength. Once I felt like I could handle the temptation of drugs any other success would just be the icing on the cake.
I do miss the camaraderie and the interaction and my friendships that I thought were so true and genuine but in the end I felt I made the right decision to walk away when I did.
Robin Martin:
--- Quote ---The one last realization that I made of myself at the Seed was that I did not want to make the Seed my crutch and I did not want to use the Seed to hide from the things I needed to go through to really grow and understand. In spite of all its imperfections the Seed had given me the tools to survive and make something of myself. It was up to me to develop these tools and carry forward with what ever I needed or wanted to do with my life...
The one mere fact that I did not fall back to my junkie mentality was the source of my biggest success. From this point I felt that I could build some true and very solid strength. Once I felt like I could handle the temptation of drugs any other success would just be the icing on the cake.
I do miss the camaraderie and the interaction and my friendships that I thought were so true and genuine but in the end I felt I made the right decision to walk away when I did.
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I could not have said it better...but I do keep trying!
I also do not understand all the "Anonymous" posters and wonder why those do not pick a name...any name :???: to assist in communicating with "Anons"
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