The death mask of Judas, is hanging on her wall.
She's going to let everyone down.
She launched her friends in the lifeboat, cuz she is a mutineer, she has an urge to drown.
She keeps up with her smiling, but sometimes she wonders why, and what they all say when she's not around.
She takes her time with her make-up, and makes her lashes shine, in sleep she's beautiful and flying.
She's like a zoo animal, that's frustrated by her cage.
She wants, she wants to be outside.
Real life could never measure up to raw imagination, this beauty always seemed like ugliness, she was still a little girl, but was treated like a grown-up.
From the CD "Ferociously Stoned"
The Lifeboat Mutiny
Steve Perry - Lyrics Lead Vocalist of Cherry Poppin' Daddies
Just a wild guess is all, but this particular "anonymous poster" struck a nerve and the syntax smacks of an ex-staffer who only managed to obtain a GED. Whether or not my guess is right is unimportant though, what counts is that I still hold this person in high regard despite all that happened so long ago. We were just kids, we were trapped in a freakish cult and did what we could to manage. I think what she/he was trying to say is that it is unhealthy to always keep returning to your past and play in the ashes of your dreams.