i've been married before. i've had relationships break my heart or crumble of instability. we all seem to suffer from thinking that straight was and is why we are so fucked up, and why we can't deal with life/people/trust/emotions... my only fear in my marriage is that he's gonna realize i'm not good enough for him, that one day he'll realize i'm just a loser. (but see, that's straight talking) my husband has no mental problems. when i first met him i thought he was such a dork... so... NORMAL! finding someone stable, full of compassion and patience was my saving grace. if i had kept falling in love with someone just as in need of understanding, just as full to the brim with pain, i'm sure it would've gone down in flames again.
i just didn't like hearing you say, kicking doesn't matter, because you don't even believe in love or relationships anymore. BECAUSE IT DOES. and by saying what you did, you're just making a big fat juicy excuse to not get off the pink. i just don't like hearing that denial.
btw - i got your dark humor, kurt gobang and stuff. suicide jokes just aren't ever that funny to me.
take care. ::heart::
A drug is neither moral nor immoral - it's a chemical compound. The compound itself is not a menace to society until a human being treats it as if consumption bestowed a temporary license to act like an asshole.
--Frank Zappa