My apologies for derailing this whole thread. My apologies to anyone offended or infuriated by my words. It has been a personal struggle for me for many, many years and I have found things that have worked in helping me to survive. One of those things is to do what I can to keep things in perspective. For me personally blaming the program everytime I stub my toe, everytime the roof leaks, or everytime I get stuck at a red light just isn't real anymore. It IS pathetic for me personally. The last thing I ever want to do to try to convince anyone that what works for me, works in general period. I am not trying to convince anyone of anything and admittedly I stand corrected for my choice of words.
This place can be a lot like group at times which is unfortunate. If you must, say what you will regarding all I mentioned above, I'll read your replies but I have stated all I have to say and my defense has rested.
yes you said it for YOU personally.. AND if you blame straight EVERY time you stub your toe, sure pretty fucking pathetic i would only say that if someone asked.. but if you did it once in awhile maybe Cuz you were pissed off about something you read about straight and werent paying attention and stubbed your toe and said God damn fucking straight made me stub my god damn toe, I'd understand. Is that pathetic? Of course not.
But you have to realize your opening remark set the tone and pissed me off to the point that it was hard to really believe much else you were saying espeiclaly after you then Restated the same pathetic statement and asked me if i agreed. Hell no I dont agree. not with the "vets blaming straight for their pathetic shortcomings " remaRk. are you crazy? Had it said "I blame straight for my pathetic short comings, or some of my friends" that would have been totally different. But not once, twice! You laid that statement on all vets. going as far to ask if i agreed with it. so how could i come to any other conclusion then you're an aarrogant asshole?? Because to me it was obvious you really believed that. Now you're saying someting a bit different BUT thats not how you came off. And with the whole TOE STUB thing you didn't imply it was you Who used that as an excuse, it came off like you were saying there are all these vest that blame straight for petty ass shit like a toe stub. I dont know many if any who do that so again I was offended by that implication.
Be mad at yourself here, you brought it on either by really meaning what you typed, or being a bit too unaware of what you typed, or just plain stupid, which i find hard to believe. I think my reaction and anger is justified based on What you implied (whether you meant it or not really doesn't matter it's what was written) in your post. And seeing that i don't know you i have NOTHING else to go on.. im guessing kim might? I could be wrong just an observation, esp since you imply you know some people here. maybe she is lucky enough to have some insight about you that WE don't, which just might allow her to discern your statments a bit better then someone who is clueless..?
As far as I go, I'm not a mean person, i can be rude, i can be a bitch, who can't?? But this week especially. Steve died 21 years ago, this week. I'm a bit on edge and im going to take everything a bit more personally then usual. Although I still would have talked shit but maybe not quite as much. who knows. So i guess you just picked a bad week to post, cuz you definitely got me at my worst, but im not ashamed of that. I'm human with emotions that are running a muck at the moment and when I'm offended or hurt, I react.
And that's not me blaming straight or making excuses, it's a sister still mourning The loss of her brother, I probably will until the day I die. Hell i only found out 6 years ago as it is and i keep finding shit out that he had to endure to this day! It's like a fucking train that just doesn't want to stop. But hey, life goes on and I'm doing the best I can. As is, as far as I'm concerned, everyone here.
I think frod and anyone else who blasted you has every right to be pissed off and I'm kinda surprised that you're surprised at the reaction this brought on.
K ive rambled enough. later