Wow, I remember it like it was yesterday, and I had not even thought nor spoke of place in well many moons, I am 49 now, was put in at 13, ran away at almost 14 from the seed, so many moons ago . The day I ran, left that scene, I had blocked it, like it never happened. Till just a few months ago, when my brother turned me on to this forum. I kinda wished I had not come here, because it was nice not remembering such horrible crap but then it feel's great at same time maybe even better for me to be able to type this stuff out of me. I am really feeling a lot of thing's from reading others stories as well. It is really emotional to remember this nightmare I kept away for so long. Do I remember yes clearly. I think I know how you feel though, it was great not thinking of that place. I hope all are able to put that part of their lives behind them, I was lucky in way I was at least young, and I was able to survive and move on. It may have been rough, but I so love freedom enough that I made it. Remembering something that should never have happened. Not for everyone I guess to remember, sometimes it is better to forget. Some of this stuff makes me feel sad at times, I mean really sad, It could also be why I feel like I am still 14 years old at times, some think I missed out by not going to school and all, but I lived, saw thing's that most would never see nor experience. I feel lucky not to have had been crippled more in life, by the force of humans. School is in the heart, and people live and learn as much as they want out of life. I have not put a dent in learning, I am grateful for that. I am also grateful I do not have to remember if I chose not to.I am grateful for surviving such memory as well. Remember to look up into the sky once in a while, Lot's of peace in the skies. Oh, and always smile, it keeps you balanced. :peace: