Greetings all.
The Pardons (my therapists) were out of town for the entire week after Thanksgiving (the week in which I was most active here) and now that they are are back, I probably will not post here much anymore, if at all. The reason I was doing all of that posting was mainly that it served as as an adjunct to my psychotherapy, as well as to my readings and work in the area of boundaries and emotional trauma; because they were out of town (the Pardons as well as most of the other residents here) and there was nobody to talk to, I was spending a lot of time alone at that time. I needed someone to talk to, a place to test some ideas, a sounding board, so I Googled the words "DAYTOP cult" and that's how I found Fornits. I found just such a board here.
This board has served its purpose toward my treatment as far as I am concerned. It was a form of reflective journaling, but in a way better, since I got a lot of good input from psy and others.
The Pardons and the others are all back now, so I will post no more unless somebody directly asks a question or whatever, and I wish to reply. I'll keep my eye on this board (as I have been) but prefer to keep my online presence to a minimum right now and don't feel like dealing with trolls and other BS, like participants engaging in flaming and trying to bait me into arguments that I am not going to be a part of. I can see all that coming from a mile away and make it a practice to "never feed the trolls."
For another thing: it (my presence here) had, and has, nothing to do with trying to promote the program I am part of now, and if you notice, I didn't even mention the name of this place for several days. The only reason I mentioned the names of Meadow Haven and the Pardons was to give some legitimacy to what I was to communicate, so that nobody would think that I was making it all up. You know where to find me. I am not going to disclose my name here (speaking of boundaries), but all of you know where I am if you want to meet me. I'll be happy to tell you all about it in person if you'd care to hear of these things in more detail.
Personally, I really do not like the unmoderated forum format; there's just too many trolls and other jerks out there. So I prefer to stay away from online forums these days for the most part.
I assure everyone and give my sacred word on this: I did not invent a single thing that I recently posted. Everything I wrote is is true and accurate.
As far as Guest not understanding how a relatively stable person could be so profoundly affected for so long: well with respect my friend, about all I can say about that is that you have not walked the proverbial mile in my shoes and are not the judge of me. There are other things, personal things about my background and life story that I did not tell of and that you therefore in fairness cannot take into consideration in coming to such a conclusion; there are many other factors involved here that you are not able to take into account in attempting to evaluate me and my experience in DAYTOP, as I related it.
In other words, I am not here to tell you my autobiography. I am here to tell you about my experience with DAYTOP and how it affected my life and the lives of my friends, some of whom lost their lives. Mike Gomez, for instance, got pushed over the edge in DAYTOP and died from negligent treatment IMO.
I was a relatively stable person in the first place, and the DAYTOP environment was in fact the destabilizing influence, not the other way around; Daytopianism completely undermined and utterly warped my personal identity and sense of boundaries.
Simply put, my conclusion is that the "one size fits all" approach to that kind of "therapy" basically does not work, and in the long term far more persons get hurt than helped, especially (like me) if they did not need to be in a program like DAYTOP to begin with. It is (the DAYTOP way) not legitimate medical treatment, it's thought reform, mind control, and DAYTOP is little more than a "sobriety cult." I do not know of one single person from that time period that stayer "clean and sober" in the longer run, and we (me and my Daytopian friends from circa '93-'94) have all had major difficulties in our post-DAYTOP lives, but are all generally doing well now, fifteen years later. Some more well than others I suppose. I myself am more than OK and getting better all the time.