Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform > Benchmark Young Adult School / Benchmark Transitions
remebering myself
Anonymous:
eliscu, its good to see someone from elan who comports themselves with dignity and decency
im sorry you had to spend time with such manipulative, underhanded, sadists
exhausted:
Eliscu
I bet they made you pay for that (not abusing your peers)
What is wrong with these people? I won't even change the names of my animals for fear of mentally confusing them - but like Psy says, it has to be a build up of lots of little mind manipulations to make the whole thing work, you can only chip away at a person for so long before hitting the weak spot that makes them crumble into teeny pieces. So sad.
psy:
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--- Quote from: ""exhausted"" ---Eliscu
I bet they made you pay for that (not abusing your peers)
What is wrong with these people? I won't even change the names of my animals for fear of mentally confusing them - but like Psy says, it has to be a build up of lots of little mind manipulations to make the whole thing work, you can only chip away at a person for so long before hitting the weak spot that makes them crumble into teeny pieces. So sad.
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I like to think I mind manipulated them right back, I was hell and I never stop being a rebel, I never let them break what I knew was right and wrong. I got lots of Physical Abuse, but what killed me was watching all of the Brainwash around me. I mostly lived in a corner.
Only the people I like were allowed to watch me in the end because I was too "real" with anyone else. Vile disgusting just to entertain myself. I went nuts in my own way. :rofl: :rofl:
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that's actually one way to make it.. though it only works if you can suceed at making a complete farce out of everythign. I know one kid who did that.. and only one... sounds a bit like you. He never took anything seriously at all, he knew exactly what was going on, and he wouldn't give them anythign to work from, giving them blatant ... and i mean really really blatant bullshit for writing assignments (type of stuff like putting: I used to have sex with thousands of women, and i feel so ashaimed on his dirt list). Sure he was on bans most of the time, or isolated. but he never followed bans, and when they isolated him, he always, always, found a way to amuse pretty much everybody else but the staff... Kid was literally a super-genius. He could take apart a car and put it back together.. crazy savant like intelligence. We both figured out the program.. but i never realized the actual wisdom behind his blatant absurdity... I thought it was easier to play it safe and try and fake it.. I guess he knew where that lead... He lasted about 4 months before they exiled him permanantly to motel... Well until his parents stopped paying that is.
But hey,, he can get a job in the motel right? right.. and he has to put benchmark down on the address and phone number of the applicatoin, and let program take his interview phone calls "benchmark young adult school how may i help you ("oh shit.. it's one of those kids from that school for fuck-ups")" And hey. if you manage to get a job...(and they know if you have one and dont' tell them since they check on you three times a day.) you gotta sign the check over to program... so you won't buy drugs.. roight... then when they yank you're level after a few months of work, and yo're back to level 1 (we heard some rumors... write a dirt list)... and they make you write and rewrite a dirtlist until you confess to somethign... they don't care what... If you refuse? You must leave.... without your money of course... When you're knocked back to level 1 they can fine all your hard earned cash away for things like "breaking bans / isolating" while simultaniosly telling your parents how you "relapsed" into bad bahavior.. mixing AA with CEDU, Synanon, and a large dose of BS... But hey... when you run out of cash, they can always fuck your parent through the "revolving fund" which is supposed to be refilled by parents when it is empty according to the enrollment conract.
Oh it's a well thought out system folks... and that's a little more on how they can still fuck you with you even after you're 18... shit.. Some of those kids spent their entire teenage life in program. Robbed of perhaps the most influencial, precious part of their lives.. But hey... I had those years.. It's just college they borked for me...
Rachael:
--- Quote from: ""psy"" ---
--- Quote from: ""Eliscu2"" ---
--- Quote from: ""exhausted"" ---Eliscu
I bet they made you pay for that (not abusing your peers)
What is wrong with these people? I won't even change the names of my animals for fear of mentally confusing them - but like Psy says, it has to be a build up of lots of little mind manipulations to make the whole thing work, you can only chip away at a person for so long before hitting the weak spot that makes them crumble into teeny pieces. So sad.
--- End quote ---
I like to think I mind manipulated them right back, I was hell and I never stop being a rebel, I never let them break what I knew was right and wrong. I got lots of Physical Abuse, but what killed me was watching all of the Brainwash around me. I mostly lived in a corner.
Only the people I like were allowed to watch me in the end because I was too "real" with anyone else. Vile disgusting just to entertain myself. I went nuts in my own way. :rofl: :rofl:
--- End quote ---
that's actually one way to make it.. though it only works if you can suceed at making a complete farce out of everythign. I know one kid who did that.. and only one... sounds a bit like you. He never took anything seriously at all, he knew exactly what was going on, and he wouldn't give them anythign to work from, giving them blatant ... and i mean really really blatant bullshit for writing assignments (type of stuff like putting: I used to have sex with thousands of women, and i feel so ashaimed on his dirt list). Sure he was on bans most of the time, or isolated. but he never followed bans, and when they isolated him, he always, always, found a way to amuse pretty much everybody else but the staff... Kid was literally a super-genius. He could take apart a car and put it back together.. crazy savant like intelligence. We both figured out the program.. but i never realized the actual wisdom behind his blatant absurdity... I thought it was easier to play it safe and try and fake it.. I guess he knew where that lead... He lasted about 4 months before they exiled him permanantly to motel... Well until his parents stopped paying that is.
But hey,, he can get a job in the motel right? right.. and he has to put benchmark down on the address and phone number of the applicatoin, and let program take his interview phone calls "benchmark young adult school how may i help you ("oh shit.. it's one of those kids from that school for fuck-ups")" And hey. if you manage to get a job...(and they know if you have one and dont' tell them since they check on you three times a day.) you gotta sign the check over to program... so you won't buy drugs.. roight... then when they yank you're level after a few months of work, and yo're back to level 1 (we heard some rumors... write a dirt list)... and they make you write and rewrite a dirtlist until you confess to somethign... they don't care what... If you refuse? You must leave.... without your money of course... When you're knocked back to level 1 they can fine all your hard earned cash away for things like "breaking bans / isolating" while simultaniosly telling your parents how you "relapsed" into bad bahavior.. mixing AA with CEDU, Synanon, and a large dose of BS... But hey... when you run out of cash, they can always fuck your parent through the "revolving fund" which is supposed to be refilled by parents when it is empty according to the enrollment conract.
Oh it's a well thought out system folks... and that's a little more on how they can still fuck you with you even after you're 18... shit.. Some of those kids spent their entire teenage life in program. Robbed of perhaps the most influencial, precious part of their lives.. But hey... I had those years.. It's just college they borked for me...
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Yeah, in AARC there was this amazing guy who subtly mocked his way through the program. He pretended he was narcoleptic for months - falling asleep in the middle of telling an incident or standing in line for food. He also pretended to be on some permanent acid trip. He would talk about "the aliens" and how when you feel an itch "it's really the aliens touching you" and then he go on about how he could see the aliens right now.... "oh my god, there's one right behind you!" It was awesome, he lasted like that for a while, eventually cracked and "got the program". But out of everyone there, he was the only one who would talk to me about real things. He kept my mind working a little while longer; he'd come up to me and ask a question like "What's the closest star to earth".... funny but that was the nicest thing anyone did for me while I was there. Just giving me the chance to think about something.
Rachael
Ursus:
This thread has actually brought me to tears. I don't know what to say, but if you think about what people here have gone through these past few years and expand them to thirty-plus, that might just come close.
Basically most of my adult life has been spent suffering in silence and obscurity after the mind-fuck I was put through. That's most of my life! Wasted!
Psy, I share your distrust of the psychiatric establishment. The bad ones are part of the program industry; the good ones... just can't understand. Maybe if this industry is still around another 30 years, there will be folks schooled and aware of what this shit is. But that will be too late for most of us here.
Eliscu, I've popped in Elan from time to time. I have some inkling of what you are up against. Keep up the faith. It took Deborah years of lonely work posting in HLA before the tide turned. Now that joint is hoppin'.
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