I agree DF, I wouldn't use the word karma either.. there or in here, LOL. I agree with the: seeing how the past effects the present. When I started to live from that perspective, suddenly I wasn't consumed anymore. I was now ~enlightened and free.
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I was pleased with the progress of seeing it (the consumption), not fearing it, and being able to step back a bit to see what i could change in my life today to further my ~healing/living process.
All these months.. when I'd say "I don't know what changed.." and I couldn't really explain it. You just expressed it all so well, what had happened to change my focus from sad/mad to Freedom. Once I could see how the past was effecting my present (ie: the ominus darkness of straight and after), I could be proactive in making some changes in the way I think and process those thoughts and emotions. I could be present in my daily life. It is living from this perspective, that makes me Free.
Pirate, I agree. If you need to go there and be in the presence of the people who possibly have your Info. Do it, but don't do it in a way that could take more from you than it gives. Do it in a way that will be a possitive result for you, no matter the actual outcome. I agree, it could be a grand event for you and many of us. Heck, what would they do if a bunch of us showed up at their door? How could they turn away all of us, politely. LOL
I support your choice, whatever you decide. I'd even go along, if my life was diffirent =(
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