On 2003-03-18 18:49:00, Anonymous wrote:
"to the person who theorizes that elizabeth was sent away for 9 months because she was pregnant --you must be deranged. your brain must be fried. how do you find your way out of a paper bag. you sound more bizarre than brian david mitchell. "
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What? :question:
I know exactly what it feels like to want to get away from home so bad, that I was willing to live with this crazy 23 year old guy when I was 15 in a trailor, and I was a doctor's daughter. He thought he was the 2nd coming and the devil, completely insane. 15 is a very impressionable age. I was desparate and afraid. He beat me(hitting, choking, throwing,)raped me(forced sex) and locked me in his room daily, and I stayed with him, and remained in hiding just to not get sent away again by my mother who had no energy for parenting, and to much money. That was 16 years ago, and until recently, I never really gave it much thought because, I've spent to much time trying to move on and get away from the past. Because of all the horrible things I've been through though I have two mental disorders that are serious enough not to try and ignore anymore. I at 31, need to face it, and re-learn how to think about my life all over. My past almost destroyed my future. My long winded point is that, I was brainwashed by this guy. He had me believeing his insanity was real, and I wanted to. I just knew I couldn't go home, if I did, my mom would send me away. I was damned if I did, and damned if I didn't. And she did send me away, that's how I landed in Straight. Before Straight, I was in a "boot-camp" for 18 months. Because I was a teen with behavior problems?
"No."
The problem was my reality. Not all parents with money are good. No-one that worked at Straight were concerned with my confessions of rape, I was made to believe that it was my fault, because I was a "druggie." Being forced and tortured to conform, is evil. But after awhile, that's normal. Just like it was with Allen,(crazy 23 year old boyfriend)
I'm sorry, I do beleive religion is a cult mind set.It's like joining a club of morals or values. Yet belittleing those who don't follow. I'm glad to see past being a follower. My mother is a babtist, and wants to do missionary work, she just got fired from another job, and moved back in with her dying mother,(free condo, when she dies!) She's wearing my Grandmothers wedding ring which is a huge diamond because my Grandmother has lost so much weight,( weighs 85 lbs. currently)she can't wear it herself. She's not dead yet! My Grandma told me, "She stole it from me, because I can't wear it." My mother is so greedy, swisted, and pathetic. But, a good christian! :scared:
If there is anything, It's not found in your churches.
Call me kooky. I have my own mind thank you.
Secular Humanism is an idea though.
http://www.secularhumanism.orgMorli
[ This Message was edited by: Morli on 2003-03-24 08:06 ]