Yeah, I hear that. On the whole, the place was abusive and extreme in its mind fuckery. But on the other hand, Christmas was actually kind of nice, and the staff made an effort to make it a decent holiday, (even if you did get crappy presents off of the RMA recommended list), the wilderness expeditions were pretty cool, and I learned how to telemark ski.
Not that it outweighs the negative, it doesn't, but sometimes you have to hang on to some positive things you had from a very bad time in your life to keep your head on straight. And most importantly, it's good to laugh your ass off at the negative, when you are emotionally ready to do so.