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Hyde School, Organizational Incest
Anonymous:
So when were you there?
Sid Smith
Anonymous:
--- Quote ---On 2006-03-07 17:48:00, Anonymous wrote:
"I wrote the original entry about organizational incest. Sorry for the typo in the first paragraph. I can spell, just can't type.
Thanks to the person who suggested further resources. I will read them.
In answer to the question about my therapist, her role was to help me put my experiences as student and staffer into perspective rather than to offer me her opinions. The organizational incest article came to her mind as I described my Hyde experiences. The nature of the incest in the community was broader than the intermarriage of alums/staff, employment of extended Gauld family, recruitment of extended family and friends of students/staff, although that certainly was part of it. It included the shared lingo and behaviors, the insular nature of the community, and a number of other traits.
Over the years, I have worked on Hyde-related issues in therapy numerous times. Some of the issues are...
Shame for letting myself get sucked in and for recruiting others in my family, betrayal and victimization by adults whom I trusted, shame as teacher/intern for perpetuating behaviors that had caused me emotional harm as a student, sadness because I invested so heavily in what I idealistically believed was a worthy cause that was going to "change American education" , loss when I left the community and relationships there behind, anger at ways in which I was treated, particularly by staff of the opposite sex, dismay when I think of open school meetings in the student union where parents exposed to the whole community their deepest, darkest sexual secrets, inadequacy when thrown into a class to teach a subject I myself had not studied since the 10th grade, shock at the behaviors I witnessed in my trusted mentors as the community turned in on itself and imploded, etc, etc. There are complex layers to each of these emotions, but the most difficult to live with are those related to ways in which I may have caused harm to others. "
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Reading your words are like reading my own thoughts. It is so reassuring to discover that other people had experiences very much like my own at Hyde. At this point in my life I find it hard to believe I got sucked in so badly by the Hyde mystic and cult qualities. I too feel embarrassed that I bought into that insular, closed, incestuous environment. I look back now in amazement that I didn't see Hyde for what it is for so many people - a twisted refuge for many adults who have struggled in their own lives and need the security, sense of direction, and power that Joe Gauld and his flock have perpetuated. Hyde can be such a perverted environment where the staff live in such a small bubble that they reinforce each other's perceptions of how students should be treated. I encountered a few dedicated professionals at Hyde, but most left quickly once they realized what Hyde's all about. I am also so depressed to think about the teachers standing in front of those classrooms who themselves had poor academic records and little training to teach their subjects. What a disgrace.
Anonymous:
--- Quote ---On 2006-03-07 17:48:00, Anonymous wrote:
"I wrote the original entry about organizational incest. Sorry for the typo in the first paragraph. I can spell, just can't type.
Thanks to the person who suggested further resources. I will read them.
In answer to the question about my therapist, her role was to help me put my experiences as student and staffer into perspective rather than to offer me her opinions. The organizational incest article came to her mind as I described my Hyde experiences. The nature of the incest in the community was broader than the intermarriage of alums/staff, employment of extended Gauld family, recruitment of extended family and friends of students/staff, although that certainly was part of it. It included the shared lingo and behaviors, the insular nature of the community, and a number of other traits.
Over the years, I have worked on Hyde-related issues in therapy numerous times. Some of the issues are...
Shame for letting myself get sucked in and for recruiting others in my family, betrayal and victimization by adults whom I trusted, shame as teacher/intern for perpetuating behaviors that had caused me emotional harm as a student, sadness because I invested so heavily in what I idealistically believed was a worthy cause that was going to "change American education" , loss when I left the community and relationships there behind, anger at ways in which I was treated, particularly by staff of the opposite sex, dismay when I think of open school meetings in the student union where parents exposed to the whole community their deepest, darkest sexual secrets, inadequacy when thrown into a class to teach a subject I myself had not studied since the 10th grade, shock at the behaviors I witnessed in my trusted mentors as the community turned in on itself and imploded, etc, etc. There are complex layers to each of these emotions, but the most difficult to live with are those related to ways in which I may have caused harm to others. "
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Hey when were you there? Were you around when Hyde Version 1.0 crashed and smoked the duel cpus (Joe and Ed) I am realy very curious about that time. Any info you could share would be appreciated.
Sid Smith a.k.a Norm DePlume
Anonymous:
Hey Sid,
I'd love to know who you are....I'm sure we were ther5e together...can I give you a private email to communicate.
Thanks!
Anonymous:
--- Quote ---On 2006-03-09 06:45:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Hey Sid,
I'd love to know who you are....I'm sure we were ther5e together...can I give you a private email to communicate.
Thanks!
"
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I think we were too. So you get the Sid reference. send me an email tr0utf1sh@yahoo.com
Sid
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