No not an asshole. I mean it's funny to hear people say how good they had done by helping a newcommer work the program. Like why would you bother? I never understood that, so I thought it was funny that if I had been your newcommer, it just wouldn't have worked on me. I always wonder what kind of stress my old commer really endured having me as a newcommer. It never occured to me back then, that they could be set back if I wasn't doing certian things. I wonder how many that happened to. So it's funny to me. Sorry, no way for you to know.. I have an entirely diffrent perspective then that of someone who complied even 1 day. I look back now, and it's all kinda really funny. I mean also very sad and yes I was horribly abused, but the dynamic of it all is amusing.
don't be offended, I harbor no ill feelings, anymore. Except to the adults who started it all, and the specific people who held me down every day and spit on me , etc.. Those people, I loathe/
I just dont have a concept of "working the program" even to just get by. so it makes me kinda snicker..I snickered out load that time, sorry =)