What I suggested is way beyond the step-craft that soaks some of the minds here.
I'm thankful to you for putting that disclaimer at the beginning of your post. It explains to me, a stepper, why the logic in much of what you write after it eludes me. I have appearantly, as I believe you suggest, been mentally crippled by these wretched 12 steps.....woe is me.... Oh, Enlightened one.... what must I do to be saved from this evil spell witch (intentional spelling humor) has been cast over me?
Please let me know which of the folowing items is offensive to you, and I'll see what I can do about getting it/them customized for you. Don't bother with the God steps. He is pretty much set on them. (the rest of them look pretty much like what you are asking John to do!....say, you're not some kind of double-agent, are you?) :scared:
THE TWELVE STEPS (generic version)
1. We admitted we were powerless over
whatever?that our lives had become unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater
than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. Made a decision to turn our will and our
lives over to the care of God as we understood
Him.
4. Made a searching and fearless moral
inventory of ourselves.
5. Admitted to God, to ourselves and to
another human being the exact nature of our
wrongs.
6. Were entirely ready to have God remove
all these defects of character.
7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed,
and became willing to make amends to them
all.
9. Made direct amends to such people
wherever possible, except when to do so
would injure them or others.
10. Continued to take personal inventory
and when we were wrong promptly admitted
it.
11. Sought through prayer and meditation
to improve our conscious contact with God, as
we understood Him, praying only for knowledge
of His will for us and the power to carry
that out.
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the
result of these steps, we tried to carry this
message to addicts, and to practice these
principles in all our affairs.