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One more thing...
JaLong:
Marshall I totally understand what you are syaing here, and my sis Robin. I haven't posted in awhile, but I have to say I hated being court(Phoney) ordered into the seed. Yeah, I got high every day, I drank every day, and I was a real hard a**. I stole, helped with an armed robbery, and was just a total jerk. I was 17 when I went into the seed, but I didn't even know who I was, or even what feelings were. In the 10 months that I was in there I felt the pressure to conform. But conform to what? If I didn't I was afraid I'd never get out of there. Slowly but surely I started to discover some feelings inside myself. I know I didn't like what I saw when I looked into the mirror, yet as time went by I started to like myself. I came out of there not only off drugs and drink, but having a little better understanding of whom I was. I am glad my parents forced me to go, because I know I would be dead right along with my 16 old "druggie" friends. They were still lost, yet I went on with my life. I have no resentments nor anger towards anyone or my experience in the seed either. That is all in my past, yet the good parts of it I still have with me. My family was dysfunctional, and in some ways still are. Yeah know how things get swept under the rug. I'm still told not to bring issues up. That's not dealing with the issues, that's just putting them somewhere else. But whoops, it's still there. I tend to want to deal with my issues as soon as I can, then let them go. I follow the saying, "let go and let God". If it weren't for Him I'd still be a lost, confused woman. Thanks Marshall for being so open and honest. I appreciate it, and everyone else who shares their experience, strength, and hope. God Bless. Julie
rjfro22:
I was in the Seed in 1973 SR84
and I am here to say 33 years later , I hold them responsible for forcing me to to learn how love myself,
and how dare they guide me in a direction where I learned how to actually hold a job and could you believe they even made me stay away from my druggie friends and dysfuntional family so I could see there was a future if I stayed sober and drug free, It's their fault I am alive today a some what happy artist/ not model/ not actor living in sunny California.
Sincerly,
Brainwashed :scared:
jlm86:
I was in The Seed about '73, lost lots of memory from heavy drug use as teenager, went back to
NorthEast High School and continued messing up.
15 years later, almost dead, I found AA, and have
been sober almost 20 years now.
This was a traumatic experience in my life, feel strange talking about it. I was there when they move from the city out to near Alligator Alley.
Can someone tell me some specifics about this period. I remember being in the tent, lived with
a heroin addict in Miami for a while.
Actually, I was a really messed up teenager that
was way out there. I would like to revisit some of these thoughts/feelings.
I live in KY now with a beautiful family, live is
good, but still have problems with anger, depression ect...but blessed indeed.
jlm86:
I was in The Seed about '73, lost lots of memory from heavy drug use as teenager, went back to
NorthEast High School and continued messing up.
15 years later, almost dead, I found AA, and have
been sober almost 20 years now.
This was a traumatic experience in my life, feel strange talking about it. I was there when they move from the city out to near Alligator Alley.
Can someone tell me some specifics about this period. I remember being in the tent, lived with
a heroin addict in Miami for a while.
Actually, I was a really messed up teenager that
was way out there. I would like to revisit some of these thoughts/feelings.
I live in KY now with a beautiful family, live is
good, but still have problems with anger, depression ect...but blessed indeed.
Anonymous:
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Finally, finally, thankyoujesus, YOU get it. Everyone here knows it saved your life - we have known that since day one. What has been missing and has been the basis of most of the posts in opposition to The Seed tactics was any proof of any supporter's understanding that this REALLY DID OCCUR. FINALLY. Thank God."
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Well, Anon - if you had been following my posts from 'day one', you would have realized I've NEVER questioned or not believed anyone for what "they personally experienced" and realize it was different for each and every one of us. What "REALLY DID OCCUR" for me - is different than what occured for you. I just share MY experience and nothing else - It's that simple. Robin
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