I am surprised at how drawn to this site I am. Its like driving around the beltway,seeing the traffic jam, hearing the sirens... deciding to not be a rubber necker...but the compulsion is too intense, you just have to look.
I graduated from Springfield 3/91, I married a "withdrawal" from '88. We were not on our phases together, we met in an NA meeting, he heard me share and knew I was from straight. I can only imagine what I said to give it away... "I don't want to push out my feelings" or "I feel trapped" or some such garbage... nonetheless we became fast friends and six years later wed. A day doesn't go by that we don't reference straight..its not even conscious. He'll walk behind the couch and "sit me up" or I'll tell him to "face forward" it's so crazy. It feels like we are war buddies, no one else (except you guys) can relate to it.. our friends often say we have our own language.
I have mixed feelings about my straight experience. I was over age and signed myself in. I believed that I needed to stop using and didn't know how. I got sucked in quick and put in a withdrawal once, but got talked out of it by Rob Hockersmith. I wanted to leave because I wanted to get high. I haven't used since the day I went to straight, I believe I have the disease of addiction and my NA recovery is very important to me. Working the steps has given me tools that are invaluable in my ability to function in society.
This is getting too long. I am so curious about people I was in the program with:
Shane , Jim W , Shelly... uh, don't remember her last name. The list is way too long... Craig , Kathy blah blah blah...
Ok. Bye
[ This Message was edited by: Sophie on 2005-09-09 19:46 ]