The dark and the cold have a lot to do with it, sure. It is a relief when December 21 comes around, then after that you know it will get lighter every day. Now it is cold as hell, which just makes ordinary activities painful. But it also breeds a certain satisfaction.
Now that I have a substantial bed of coals and a popping fire (kindling is key!) I will say that I mean a lot of my piss posts in jest. I'm making fun of myself, really. At the same time, I really am having a little nervous breakdown as I blow helplessly on the logs to get them to catch good. I was always taught that anger is bad, which can compound things, if you get mad, then you hate yourself for getting mad. Now I am starting to find it very very funny. This girl flicked me off so I sped up and tailgated her for two miles. What a bitch I am! But at the light, she's giving me the finger again, and I'm laughing, for real, I think it is very funny! Ooh, mad girl! Okay, note to self, stop driving impetuously, now! Oh yeah, and don't skid out of stoplights when there is other traffic on the road, unless you can do a quick save, like me, when your car goes out of control on the ice! It was an excellent, last minute save, then I was laughing for half a mile, then the cops raced up -- DOH! --and passed me and pulled over the other guy who was going a lot faster!
This weekend I am getting TBPITW, and also I hope a good set of speakers. Then I will be all meow meow set to go.
