As stupid as it sounds, she saw through my shit. That was the turnaround point for me. I had my major guilt kept as a 2 year resident in a Chief position. If she didn`t play hardball with my ass, then I wouldn`t be the person I am today. She challenged the fuck out of me the most. I wanted to be like her when I became older, but if anything, I just want to emulate her strength. People hate her, people love her. I get angry too about Elan, but it`s the past people, now it`s up to you to keep it together.
Believe me, I was there for 3 years `n I tried so hard to fake it until I made it, but was caught. I agree some staff are manipulative `n have gotten extremely comfortable in their positions of power. But there are some who bust their ass for us.. .Clare was one of them. We weren`t close, by no means not at all, but I respect her nonetheless.
During the restructuring of our house `n when all the guilt was coming down, she was sleeping over `n coming in early in the morning. She put her personal life on hold `n worked day in `n day out to get the house together again.
I don`t need negative comments, I know them all. But for now, since its the holidays, thinking of the better times is easier. As I said, I had my shitty times too.. .I don`t judge you, so don`t try judging me.