Methadone doesnt cause you to get high or nod at a proper dose..Hell I even split my dose in half so I dont get high..I have pot for that
If you eat, sleep, etc in a healthy manner you shouldnt nod or get high...
Opiate addiction is a matter of brain chemistry not behaviour...
You are voicing straights view on addiction "Behavior problem"
If I was such a "weak addict" how did I quit drinking..and doing all other drugs? Hell Im sure most of you get fucked up alot more than me..
But think wghat you want...you can point out my addiction all you want. It doesnt change the fact that you are Child abusing hypocrites..liars...cowards (anons)
And I never said my life was worse than other peoples...I was just talking about me...
Hell I could have hidden it and acted like Im so together and successful...like you guys do.
Think what you want ...but at least inform yourself before posting about MMT etc.
If you think its wrong, I dont give a shit it saved my life.
That?s funny, because when I was on methadone, seven years ago, I got so high right after dosing that I could barely drive home, or function in school! It took me a good three or more hours to stop nodding, and they wanted to raise my dose! Hell, when I first moved away from where the dope and the clinics were, (after kicking) I used to buy methadone pills from a guy here in town to GET HIGH. That was over six years ago. Don?t try to tell me it?s not dangerous or addictive! I?ve known someone who died from a methadone overdose! It?s just as dangerous as heroin. I
personally see it as both a behavior problem
and a physical/psychological addiction. Why choose to use a crutch the rest of your life? Why not choose to be free from the restrictions of knowing that if you don?t get "your dose" (fix) then you?ll get very, very dopesick! (or could even die!) That?s called a living hell in my book. A prisoner of YOURSELF. I lived it, and I chose to kick it! We?re talking addiction, we?re talking dependence. It?s your choice, but don?t tell me just because the government provides it legally, that it?s an ?okay? or a harmless, non-addictive choice, because that
IS total bullshit. You told me yourself that you nodded every morning after you dosed, and you just admitted that you have to split your dose in half
not to get high. I would too if I had to take 190mg a day to keep my ADDICTION under control. I really feel sorry that you are in so deep, it must totally suck to be you. Besides, all your "facts" come from the MMT clinic, and they don't want you to stop taking it anyway!
Now, didn?t you live with two strippers (whores) when you were a dope fiend/drug dealer? Why would you call a soccer mom (I?m not really) a whore? Is it because you resent what you know you could never get? I think so. I remember telling you about Jonathan and I, and how in love we were, and how I would never cheat on him, (because you asked) I remember you asking about it because you just couldn?t understand how I could say I still loved (as a friend) Stephen Brooks. I remember you having trouble believing that I wouldn?t cheat on my husband because of that. It?s not my problem that you are a paranoid, untrusting, manic depressive! Doesn?t mean I?m not a flirt, and it doesn?t mean my husband isn?t fully aware of that fact. Still, flirtation doesn?t make me "a whore." I mean shit Brad, I encouraged you to go out and meet girls! Go get laid! Not flirt with me! I was really happy for you and Kaydee! You?re cute like a little brother, not a man I find sexually attractive! Besides, wasn?t it
you who complemented me all the time? Telling me how lucky my husband was? Any flirtation that did go on was harmless and all in good fun. You?re only flattering yourself with the, "She was trying to fuck me!" stretch, and it sounds like a personal problem to me anyway.
I apologize to the board for responding to this again, but after all the abuse and slander I have had to read from this guy, I wanted to respond. I know, I shouldn't even find it worth my time, but I guess it's my problem because I did, afterall, waste my time chatting with this irrational little boy to begin with.
Live and learn, ahhh yes.
