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« Reply #90 on: January 24, 2004, 11:29:00 AM »
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On 2004-01-24 07:22:00, kaydeejaded wrote:

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will bite them :roll:

This thread is enough to make Stephen, (someone I love and care about) not feel welcome. I hope that if or when he does find this board he's able to disregard all of the completely moronic statements made, and at least contact me. I consider him like a family member to me, and have been worried about him for several years. I also wanted him to know that the father of my daughter, husband, and friend of his was killed in a car accident 3 years ago. And before any dumbass wants to jump up and say, "Yay, he probably deserved to die," He was never in straight, I met him after, in 1990. Steve moved here for a short time and they became friends. He thought Steve was one of the funniest guys he'd ever met. I still giggle to myself remembering his words.




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« Reply #91 on: January 24, 2004, 12:30:00 PM »
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Staff were victims too... come on, we all need to remember that staff were just scared/tortured kids too at one point. We were all abused.

WE ARE ALL SURVIVORS.

Remember, we/they were brainwashed?

Yes they were victims, but then in some cases, became horrible abusers. There are some that people wouldn't think twice about beating the fuck out of or even killing if they were to run into them now. and I say Oh well. Tough shit. They made their bed.., an eye 4 an eye, etc.

But then on the other hand, there are ex-staff who didn't go out of their way to abuse kids, who deserve the same respect as other survivors.

It also depends to some degree on the ex-staffer's attitude about 'it all' today. Maybe they were somewhat on the abusive side, but truly regret that now. That doesn't mean that they should be off the hook completely, but I think they deserve to be heard at least...
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« Reply #92 on: January 24, 2004, 01:12:00 PM »
Siiiiiigh, Thank you for your opinion Alex... why don't one of you start a thread called, EX-STAFFERS, the good, the bad, and the ugly?

You know, I was never on staff, and to my knowledge, I never, or rarely confronted anyone. I never hurt you, I just got the fuck out of the hell hole and tried to go on. I started this thread looking for one person, who means a lot TO ME!!

Timmy, Kelly, whoever else, I don't give a rat's (or mouse's in this case) ass what you think of Steve or Jeff. I fucking loved them, and I'm not an evil person, neither were they. They/we were all victims. Everyone deals with trauma, self hatred and severe emotional damage differently, as, we are all different. I for one spent two years prior to straight in another prison camp, an outdoor prison,  ages 13-15. Then I was put in straight 15-17. My father was an abusive violent prick who abused me ?til the day he was killed in a car wreck, and even though his death was a blessing to me, I never told my grandmother I was glad his sorry ass was dead, because, I wasn't. I was thirteen. That was six months before my first prison.

Every human being has the ability to change, to "come to." Try being a little less selfish, you people who entered this thread just to bash and flame three of my friends who have had a VERY rough go at their lives, and who have spent years after straight in torment, and pain for their loss of self, reality, freedom, and in this case life itself.


An Animated Cartoon Theology:
1. People are animals.
2. The body is mortal and subject to incredible pain.
3. Life is antagonistic to the living.
4. The flesh can be sawed, crushed, frozen, stretched, burned, bombed, and plucked for music.
5. The dumb are abused by the smart and the smart destroyed by their own cunning.
6. The small are tortured by the large and the large destroyed by their own momentum.
7. We are able to walk on air, but only as long as our illusion supports us.
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« Reply #93 on: January 24, 2004, 03:01:00 PM »
you let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
you let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
help me I broke apart my insides, help me I?ve got no soul to sell
help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god
you can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
you can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
help me tear down my reason, help me its' your sex I can smell
help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god

through every forest, above the trees
within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
you are the reason I stay alive
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« Reply #94 on: January 24, 2004, 03:38:00 PM »
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On 2004-01-23 14:47:00, morli wrote:

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Carmeron Riley is a burned out old drug addict, now loser. His wife/partner in crime, left him, and now he has nothing.



I don't speak for Jeff, but I knew a different side of him, he's gone though, have some respect for his family.



Were you even friends with Steve? Can you stop contaminating this thread with your hate? I'm looking for my friend."


I am with Therion on Steve Brooks.  I saw 2 different people.  I was assigned to the Litner host home and Steve lived there while on staff.  I also went to school with Steve at Burkner.  He was cool away from Straight, but at the building was different.  He seemed more into playing games with people than tring to help them.  I plan to start a Dallas Staff box, but don't have time today.
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« Reply #95 on: January 24, 2004, 05:46:00 PM »
I think steve would undestand it just fine..
After all I did watch him get  "HATE" tattood down his leg in huge letters...
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« Reply #96 on: January 24, 2004, 07:46:00 PM »
Okay, Therion, can we get together on the phone please?

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« Reply #97 on: January 24, 2004, 10:31:00 PM »
I already said I forgave him
Im sorry I didnt mean to piss all you guys off..

Ill just drop the subject, I didnt intend to upset everyone. Dont waste money talking to me long distance.
I told you I thought Steve was cool out of straight.
 I just dont think anything said would scare him off...Hes not shy or anything.

 I dont know why you guys pay attn to me anyway...Im just a loser white trash junky..
 Compared to most you guys anyway..I didnt have anyone to pay for deprogramming or whatever.
 Straight tore my family apart, tore my self esteem apart. They worked on my parents good.

 Dont pay any attn to me, who I am and what I say is nothing....
 Blow me off and pay no mind...
 Dont feel like you owe me shit, and dont feel like you have to act like my friend just cuz we were in same rehab...or act like you care because Im pitiful junky.....

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-24 19:35 ]
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« Reply #98 on: January 24, 2004, 10:38:00 PM »
Plus I already said sorry and Im not glad hes dead..Yah I have resentments, but apparantly I dont have the right to feel that way..

All I know is when I went into straight...I was an active kid, had friends and liked myself..
By the time I got out I couldnt even look people in the eye anymore....I still hate looking in the mirror..
 I turned into what they told me I was...trash

 Look how often I make posts...its kind of obvious I have no friends and sit at the computer all day, isnt it?

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-24 19:39 ]
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« Reply #99 on: January 24, 2004, 10:40:00 PM »
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On 2004-01-24 19:31:00, Therion wrote:

"I already said I forgave him

Im sorry I didnt mean to piss all you guys off..



Ill just drop the subject, I didnt intend to upset everyone. Dont waste money talking to me long distance.

I told you I thought Steve was cool out of straight.

 I just dont think anything said would scare him off...Hes not shy or anything.



 I dont know why you guys pay attn to me anyway...Im just a loser white trash junky..

 Compared to most you guys anyway..I didnt have anyone to pay for deprogramming or whatever.

 Straight tore my family apart, tore my self esteem apart. They worked on my parents good.



 Dont pay any attn to me, who I am and what I say is nothing....

 Blow me off and pay no mind...

 Dont feel like you owe me shit, and dont feel like you have to act like my friend just cuz we were in same rehab...or act like you care because Im pitiful junky.....

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-24 19:35 ]"


I want to ask you about him, I'll pay for the call!!! Private message me your number, please...  :smile:
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« Reply #100 on: January 24, 2004, 10:50:00 PM »
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On 2004-01-24 19:38:00, Therion wrote:

"Plus I already said sorry and Im not glad hes dead..Yah I have resentments, but apparantly I dont have the right to feel that way..



All I know is when I went into straight...I was an active kid, had friends and liked myself..

By the time I got out I couldnt even look people in the eye anymore....I still hate looking in the mirror..

 I turned into what they told me I was...trash



 Look how often I make posts...its kind of obvious I have no friends and sit at the computer all day, isnt it?

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-24 19:39 ]"


please, please let me call you!!!!!!!!!

I tried for years to live according to everyone else's morality.
I tried to live like everyone else, to be like everyone else.
I said the right things even when I felt and thought quite differently.
And the result is a catastrophe.

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« Reply #101 on: January 24, 2004, 10:52:00 PM »
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By the time I got out I couldnt even look people in the eye anymore....I still hate looking in the mirror..

I turned into what they told me I was...trash


I know exactly how you feel.



To err is human; to forgive is simply not our policy.

 

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« Reply #102 on: January 24, 2004, 10:54:00 PM »
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Siiiiiigh, Thank you for your opinion Alex... why don't one of you start a thread called, EX-STAFFERS, the good, the bad, and the ugly?
Because I've said all that I want to say about it already. And, if you're going to go dangling pinatas out there like this one -

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Staff were victims too... come on, we all need to remember that staff were just scared/tortured kids too at one point.

 - how can you expect no one to comment? Ok, please drive through... :smokin:
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« Reply #103 on: January 24, 2004, 10:56:00 PM »
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On 2004-01-24 19:54:00, Froderik13 wrote:

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Siiiiiigh, Thank you for your opinion Alex... why don't one of you start a thread called, EX-STAFFERS, the good, the bad, and the ugly?

Because I've said all that I want to say about it already. And, if you're going to go dangling pinatas out there like this one -



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Staff were victims too... come on, we all need to remember that staff were just scared/tortured kids too at one point.

 - how can you expect no one to comment? Ok, please drive through... :smokin: "


then shut the fuck up already... :wink:

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« Reply #104 on: January 24, 2004, 11:10:00 PM »
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then shut the fuck up already

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