Wow. Yes, I can see how you "take responsibility for your thoughts, feelings, and actions" when you lash out at me like that for expressing myself. Always nice to hear from angry folks such as yourself! Too bad KIDS didn't "instruct" you on how to be kind to your fellow humans. :eek:
But then, your reaction doesn't surprise me. Most victims of child abuse do what you have done here - rationalizing that you couldn't have changed without being emotionally and psychologically battered in KIDS. And that's okay, because I know without telling yourself that, then you wouldn't be able to cope with what you already admit was "flawed mistreatment."
Incidentally, I wasn't aware that the posts were supposed to be "educated or imperical [sic] input." Could have sworn that when these boards were created it was so that we could express ourselves, educated, uneducated, experienced, inexperienced, or whatever. Furthermore, it seems to me that your hostility is either personal - directed at me for some unknown reason, or horrifically misplaced and you're using me as your punching bag.
If you want to deem my regret at not stopping the monster as "self-pity" so be it. That's your opinion and you're entitled to it, only I could have sworn I was expressing empathy and sympathy.
But since I'm not the one who hurt you, sweetie, shouldn't you "take responsibility for your thoughts feelings and actions" as you claim and direct that anger where it belongs?
By the way, I think you are one of the saddest victim of oppression on these boards in that you think you are healthy, but clearly, if you look at your post, you're still two people in one body warring against one another. Everything you said screams, "Child of abuse," and yet, you lash out at me as though I'm the one who held you captive and ripped apart your identity.
I truly hope you find the peace you clearly do not possess and fix your fractured sense of self. Maybe then you too can cry when you read these tragic stories.
Shalom, my friend.
