Well I don't know, I think fornits already provides a fairly useful forum for those wanting to get their stories out. A lot of organizing could be done to sift the good information from the bullshit and all that but it doens't have much to do with this topic. I always thought the exchange of money is starnge in thie scene because whether legitimate or not it makes people wonder about what you are all about. LOok at all the crap caca and those fuckers get for taking money right? So is it really necessary to send your own personal money to survivros to write, seems kind of weird to me to be honest. I wouldnt take your money... you know who's money I wouldn't mind spending, the program profits, but those are being spent on god knows what.. paying politicians I imagine. I am not comfortable submitting my own stories to a peer reivew or group of people, the reason is because I dont give a flying fuck what you think of it, because I know a lot of people hate what I say, some people aree, other people don't care, but to me it's real and it's not like anybody saw it happen, it's an isolated incident, so only me and and a couple other people know what happened and I choose to write about it. A lot of people don't enjoy delving intot he past and reliving these things and writing about them. I am somewhat moasochistic in that way, so much my friend said I should never ever visit this shitty website again and just forget this crap. But I enjoy it, because every time you relive it it loses it's BANG, its hurt and its impact--- now that is moving on if you ask me. So most people don't get that right?
That's why fornits is genius. Yeah I am sure that you and some people know who I am based on my predictable vocabulary and all that, great detective work watson. But people reading this three years from now have no clue, they probhably think I am some program survivor, too drunk to spell right.. obviously suffering PTSD from being locked in a cage. But it is more than that. This place is a gathering of those who have had their eyes forced wide open and shown the way our society works, and some people loved it, others hated it and some were left forever confused, a never ending futile batle with themselves over a relatively small chunk of time that can never dissapear right?
Taking a hundred dollars from some dude on the other side of the world to write about a program experience takes away from the reason why so many are compelled everyday to seek out and write about this sadistic subject. It's because they have to they don't want to, you of all people should understand that. Patronizing comes to mind, but thats just me, maybe others see it differently I don't know. I think your heart is in the right place though. But that is like some white people going down south during the civil rights riots to put some change in the cups of the begging destitute blacks after they were beaten by white cops. Sure it helps them some, but it hurts more to take it..
Some suggestions... just ask survivors questions and stop trying to control the resonse so much. Control is part of the problem, not part of the solution!