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« on: February 14, 2003, 04:05:00 AM »
confusion?  yes that what i feel sometimes im so curious to know like whats on millers mind?
 did he indeed care or was he really a real life con artist. i am deeply hurt by him its a scar that ill have for a while. you know the other day i was actually thinkng if the people he said were his kids were they really his? or did he pay them to pose.  was he really married to mrs. newton which by the way never did me no harm. she was also brainwashed. I AM AT A LOSS FOR WORDS SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT HAPPENED TO MY LIFE? I NEVER WENT TO HIGHSCHOOL OR COLLEGE I PICTURED THE REST OF MY LIFE FOLLOWING MILLER BUT NOW IM TRYING TO CHANNEL THIS PAIN AND HATRED IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION BECAUSE IF NOT ILL END UP FULLFILING MILLERS PROPHESY
 I LOVE YOU ALL AS SICK AS IT SOUNDS BECAUSE I KNOW THERE IS A LOT OF EX STAFF OUT THERE THAT MADE MY LIFE TORTURE. SHOULD I FORGIVE AND FORGET??? SHOULD I JUST MOVE ON ????
 I HAVE NIGHTMARES LIKE SERIOUSLY BELIEVE ME LIKE ONCE A WEEK I HAVE A KIDS NIGHTMARE. WHEN WILL THIS ALL END. I WOULD REALLY LIKE SOME ANSWERS I MEAN AT LEAST TO KNOW THAT AT LEAST 50 PEOPLE THAT WERE IN GROUP CAN RELATE TO ME. BOY WHAT I WOULDN T GIVE TO TURN BACK THE CLOCK. I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO HAVE MY FEELINGS OF DESPAIR RESOLVED. I HAVE EVEN CONSIDERED GOING ON THE OPRAH WINFREY SHOW AND TELLING MY STORY OF TORTURE AND ABUSE. DID MILLER KNOW WE WERE SEING TORTURED? OR DID HIS HENCHMEN LIE TO HIM
 SOMEONE PLEASE AID MY ACHING SOUL.  I CRY ON THE INSIDE AND SMILE ON THE OUTSIDE :wave:
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« Reply #1 on: February 14, 2003, 08:47:00 AM »
Of course he knew we were being tortured. He beat the crap out of me himself one time.
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« Reply #2 on: February 14, 2003, 03:27:00 PM »
I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO KNOW HOW IT WAS THAT MILLER ACTUALLY BEAT YOU. HE PROBABLY DID IT REALLY SNEAKY OR HAD SOMEONE ELSE LIKE MAYBE JOEL DO IT
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« Reply #3 on: February 14, 2003, 04:10:00 PM »
No, it wasn't really sneaky. I was dragged kicking & screaming out of an open meeting & taken to the area that was under construction to be the big group room. There were 4 or 5 female staff & phasers with me. I was fighting & they were restraining me in the bathroom, it was very ugly. I guess Newton heard what was going on & came out to see. He had them bring me out of the bathroom to the construction area & they held me up against the wall in front of him. He grabbed me by the hair on my forehead & beat my head against the wall until I went limp. I think he yelled at me for awhile but I don't really remember anything else about that night.
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« Reply #4 on: February 15, 2003, 04:11:00 AM »
THATS REALLY PISSES ME OFF. LET HIM TRY THAT SHIT WITH ME ILL CUT HIS HANDS OFF  :flame:
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« Reply #5 on: February 16, 2003, 05:46:00 AM »
I am pretty sure I witnessed this, right Kris?  He was and is an evil asshole hiding behind a mask of the hero
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« Reply #6 on: February 16, 2003, 07:20:00 PM »
During my time on staff I was present for a number of things that Miller did that were wrong/illegal.  

I was in the room when Miller instructed the doctor that came to examine people needing medical attention to prescribe enough Thorazine for Rich Ok*m* and Todd L*Bl*nc to keep them in such a stupor that they were not even able to talk, much less rebel.  Both of them had to be revived to go to the bathroom regularly, since they would soil themselves otherwise.  Miller would joke about that aspect of their "treatment."

I also saw him oversee beatings on a number of people in the time-out rooms - both male and female first-phasers.  There is no reason to go into huge details - we all know what went on in that area of the building.

But, the most telling thing I can say is that it was all planned for long ahead of time - Miller knew what was going to happen at the place.  I visited 80 Commerce Way for the first time as they were still building it, about a month before it opened.  Miller walked my father and I around showing stuff off.  When we got to the area where the time-out rooms were being built, he boasted about how each one was double-soundproofed, along with the outside walls for the area, so that nothing going on in that area could be heard in the other areas of the building.  I should have been scared by this, but I was not.

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« Reply #7 on: February 16, 2003, 10:13:00 PM »
I`d suggest some theropy!! It helped me out. Your pain is real and the confussion is real as well.I`ve been out for a while and I still have nightmears.And the whole school thing I`m in the same place, but I went and got my GED 3 years ago. Need to go to collage at some point, but have no direction on what to do. I had never thought about it, I also thought I`d be with Kids forever. My goals were all about staff...sad. it`s totally living in another world.I never thought I`d be out of there. Now I can`t believe I ever thought that way !

Your ok.It`s good to talk about it.Thanks for keeping it real :smile:
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« Reply #8 on: February 17, 2003, 08:46:00 AM »
Yes, I think you were there Christy. I know Mary B. & Jenny H. were there. Jenny & I have talked about it since finding these sites. She was also with me the day I had a conference call with Newton while I was on 5th phase. Staff had come to this big conclusion that something was holding me back from graduating. (uh, yeah, that would be THEM) So I had to come up with something. I said "I think that what was done to me in NJ by Dr. Newton was wrong." So this big conference call was set up for me so that he could explain why it wasn't wrong. Well, would you believe I bought it! Hook, line & sinker. He told me why it was the best thing he could have done for me at the time, I agreed, & then I graduated. I could have even repeated it back to you & convinced you it was right.
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« Reply #9 on: February 19, 2003, 04:03:00 AM »
I HAVE ONLY ONE WORD TO SAY AFTER HEARING ALL THIS ,  HORROR. THAT MAN WAS LIKE HITLER.HIS PURPOSE WAS TO HAVE ABSOLUTE POWER OVER EVERYONE.BUT WE ALL HAVE TO ANSWER TO GOD IN THE END GOD HELP YOU MILLER
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