Listen, I'm seeing you guys point, however, let me say this;
these rights of freedom of speech and freedom of travel were not completely cut off. yes, granted they were restricted, but at any time in elan, I could say anything I wanted, and I did. I could have split if I had the sheer will to do so. Therefore, while infringed upon, these rights were not absent, simply - fear was used as a tool to limit them. I shut up sometimes because i didnt want the consequences, never ran because i never wanted it bad enough. You cannot suppress someone with a strong enough will.
I sort of gained hope and guidance, perspective or whatever because of knowing an old vet who was captured and spent years in Hanoi being tortured. I realized what was happening to me was chicken shit and peas compared to real brainwashing, real torture, and real survival. we need to move on, it wasnt that bad.
obviously, i would agree with you that the 'therapeutic' value of elan is practically non-existant, and raw coercion is rarely an antidote to any problem... change comes from within (ho ho!) - and we woulda have had a better shot of realizing that by never being there and living that chunk of our lives... but we cant change any of that now. hey, some people on this board might be angry or a little messed up, but in general, considering what ALL of us went through, we turned out alright