Pirate..ya said
There is nothing to gain. Security does not exist. The self is an illusion.
That reminds me of somethimg someone asked me before...kinda like a modern day koan of sorts..."Do you want freedom or security?" Of course the intellectual answer would be "Freedom"...obviously. Yet interally I found that what I really wanted at the time was "security". At the time I had not fully realized what you said..."Security does not exist" and yet it was all I strived for...'It' was the IDEAL and so the cycle went from there...Interesting.
Regarding the headstone. DZ- It wasn't or rather isn't difficult to know who this person was...they were a relative of mine. The cemetery is an old family (my family) cemetary. I will have to see if i can find the picture I took of it last year while I was there.
Whilst attending Oxford of Emory in Oxford Ga., being true to form I hooked up with the senior chemistry majors and used to score some yummy LSD125---original recipe! I used to camp in the nearby woods for days at a time and used to run across the old cival war cemetaries. I was just in awe by them for some reason. At the time I had not yet used 125 for spiritual reasons, but for the sensations (didn't go for spiritual reasons for another 10 years after that...no original recipe at that time) Only thing I have done like that in recent years is going to the seminole burial mounds, which are even older....amazing how peacefull they are.