Reading all that and being faced with the fact I was unknowingly a "test subject" under extreme duress by all the other abuses I endured at the hands of Straight Inc. makes me feel Hollow, like I don't really exist. I feel like I just woke up and am inside "the matrix"
I remember those questioneers, but I never understood where they came from or why I was forced to fill them out. I clearly remember I had NO CHOICE , I either filled out the papers or was harshly punished in front of the entire group, often ending in other teens forcing me to the floor, sitting on me for hours. I remember being coerced by staff as to "how I should answer". I had no idea until today I was used in any "research", however how henious or false it was. I had no idea, untill today, that "results" were published about me. Results that clearly were false and effected by physical coercement. The dates and places those studies were done, I was there! I was there when they passed out that suicide poll.
I feel hollow, non existant, used, decieved, ill, enslaved, abused, damaged, disgusted, confused, displaced, and so much more I can not even find words for.
Any person who let this happen to us deserve to live in great shame with horrifying nightmares of all whom they abused. These people who did this to us deserve to be liable for all damage we suffered to this very day and beyond. We as the teens who endured all and any portion of this deserve Justice. Any person involved from the community on up to our goverment should be held accountable for altering/destroying thousands of lives forever.