Raped in Straight Inc.

[Anonymous]

I have recently been able to recall that I was physically raped in Straight Inc.

I have been speaking to attorneys for the last few months and I have done a lot of research on Straight.

But the problem is that no attorney wants to touch this case as a result of the insurmountable odds. It is harder to prove that I did not 'remember' that I was physically molested than it would be to suddenly be in pain for a medical spoon that a dr. left in me during an operation. This is purely more of a psychological thing.

And although I am completely willing and able to go under the microscope to see about any scarring that this male might have done to me and whether or not there is cause to move against my rapist, we all know the pitfalls I have these last few weeks seen when it comes to getting any attorney to file the fucking case.

I will not PM you or private mail you. If you want to say something here please do so.

I do not have any money to file a rape suit, I was sixteen when it happend and I was really worked over when he did it, or anything like that and could only get an attorney who is willing to work on a contingency basis.

I know I now have about four years remaining to catch the sonabitches who did this to me, but I am not sure that any attorney will get it unless something comes to light. I have already spent the last few months tryng to find one and they all keep widdling away at my statutes and coming back with things like, 'there is noone to sue, you have exceeded what statutes we see are applicable, or this is just not something we can do'.

I have followed others advice and spoken to many attorneys but they keep turning me out or not returning communication. I don't really have anyone I could trust on this issue.

Was there sexual penetration? Yes. Was I held against my will and raped? Yes. Did I try to speak out at that time agaist my attacker? Yes I did. Did anyone hear me at that time? No, noone would and I tried to call the police and they wouldn't let me. I tried to run and I got busted to the floor.

Ultimately I can speak out about it now that I know. For the first few months I was completely depressed. But even though I know there will likely never ever be an attorney to file some kind of crime case for me, the harder part for me to see right now is that I have to live with this for the rest of my life and I will never be able to get any kind of revenge or anything of the kind. The real sad and factual truth is that I will just eventually and likely have to come to 'terms' with this shit and live it down. Or not.

But I do wish I could find an attorney who would recognize this for what it is. I also heard that there are others who had gotten sexually assaulted while in Straight. I believe all of it. Those bastards were so mean to me and that's aside from the raping that happened several times.

Isn't there anyone who already knows of Straight Inc. and would recognize this for what it is and just say, 'hey, I'll take you to court Straight!'

I know the man's name who did this but I will not say it here. I am looking for attorneys and I don't like to play games.

[Anonymous]

I'm not sure if Phil Elberg would be intersted in this, but its worth a try.

The statutes varu from state to state bit I know a few that start the clock running from the time the memory surfaces.

Good luck and I'm really sorry.

[Anonymous]

My sympathies to you.  Good luck, I hope the bastards pay.

[Anonymous]

Yeah, thank you. The support is appreciated. I'm tough as nails when it comes to hardship in my life ya know.

The screwed up and halfway nice thing about knowing finally that the law was broken against me is that I know now what is 'wrong' with me and why I did some of the things I have done since that time.  You understand.

Who is Phil Elberg and what does he do? I actually tried to contact him but I heard he no longer does any kind of rape cases or child forbearance type case/issues. I was in Straight in Pinellas Park in the beginning of the 1980s and I think there were probably other Straight people who got rapes and beaten. I saw some of them getting beaten.

If I were an attorney I would sue the hell out of the bastards and not worry about the statuts.

[Nonconformistlaw]

As if Straight wasnt bad enough....my god, you've been through hell! Sorry about your experience. I fully support your effort to get some justice.

What about checking with an attorney who has experience with sexual abuse/priests cases? I believe repressed memories are common in those cases and think that some have been able to sue years after the statute of limitations expires.

Keep checking. Hope you find an attorney who can help you. ::rainbow::

[Helena Handbasket]

I know I now have about four years remaining to catch the sonabitches who did this to me, but I am not sure that any attorney will get it unless something comes to light. I have already spent the last few months tryng to find one and they all keep widdling away at my statutes and coming back with things like, 'there is noone to sue, you have exceeded what statutes we see are applicable, or this is just not something we can do'.

First of all, I really feel for you if you're living with this shit.  

However - I'm confused by what you said about having four years remaining to do anything.

[Anonymous]

I don't know if I'm  living with it all that well.

What I meant by four years is that I saw that someone had posted that I have four years from the time I discovered the incident had happened. I began remembering what happened in Straight only about 6 months ago. The really shitter about this is I don't think I remember everything. I was on meds back in Straight, so they probly did some other shit to me I don't know about yet.

As I keep talkin and branching out and discovering more stuff that happened to other people I am remembering more. I am working to better myself all the time so I am trying to remember what I can as I am able without breaking myself into any fits that would cause any further harm to me. It's not easy.

But it would help me get some kinder thoughts about life in general if I know I can get some court set up that would look int this rape for me. Noone wants to and I'm tired of making long introductions to attorneys. The police now have my report on file, the bastards took forever to get back to me.

I just really don't honestly think is anyone out there who is going to really lookinto this. And that's alright. I'll keep looking and asking. Hell, the other day I asked a beat cop if he knows how I can about getting some revenge. He didn't have much to say about it, but I felt a little better after having asked.

[Anonymous]

Oh, now THIS sounds like some real bullshit here. I really doubt you were sexually penetrated/raped in Straight chica. At best maybe your privacy was taken away which is humiliatin, but you ARE exxagerating a bit MUCH here!!!

I really don't mean to sound insensitive here, but its like that post graduate/staff member -Samantha Monroe ... that old whore was on national television and she has never once coughed up the name of her alleged rapist attackers. You would think someone would have done something by now. I just really don't buy it at all.

You were raped. Yeah, rite.

[Anonymous]

I have to say that I am a bit skeptical as well. My heart goes out to anyone who has been sexually assaulted, but this story here just dosen't feel right.
It is not uncommon in pediatric cases where the victim is very young for them not to fully remember the incident until years later, but you were in your teens correct? And this happened on more than one occasion correct? I know that there is a lot of stuff that I don't remember all that well from my time in the program but I can tell you without a doubt that being raped multiple times is not something that I would ever forget. You said that you were on some kind of medication, but even so, you would have had to have been in a black out stage every time this happened to not remember SOMETHING from one of the times this happened. You go on to say that there is probably more that happened to you while you were there and that you are in the process of trying to remember those things.
What kind of therapist are you seeing?
I would be curious to know what happened that prompted these memories. Was is while you were in therapy?
I'm not trying to be insensitive here. I am only saying that there is much about your post that makes me think this story is not entirely true. Have you considered the thought that the reason you may be having difficulty finding  a attorney is that they may have questions of their own. Rape is a very serious charge and you need to have more than " I have happened to remember being raped multiple times 20 years ago" to have an attorney take your case, regardless of who it is against.

[Anonymous]

Lawyers do not file criminal charges.  CRIMINAL charges are brought by the state/fed government.  A complaint would have to be filed and an investigation conducted.  Based on the evidence found, the district attorney's office would pursue.  They would have to present their case to the grand jury to get a True Bill in order to actually take the case to a jury and have the person arrested.

Now if you are talking about filing a CIVIL suit to obtain damages, good luck.  I doubt you will find any lawyer that would waste their timeon this - especially since it sounds like this has gone unreported and there was never any criminal trial, much less a conviction.

So - I'd have to agree with some of the other posters.  There seems to be something fishy in your story.

[Carmel]

I just really don't honestly think is anyone out there who is going to really lookinto this. And that's alright. I'll keep looking and asking. Hell, the other day I asked a beat cop if he knows how I can about getting some revenge. He didn't have much to say about it, but I felt a little better after having asked."

I dont doubt its possible to forget things like this...however I think you are asking the wrong questions if what you said above is true.

Revenge?  Thats just petty.  There is no "revenge", and it tells alot about your intentions by using this word.  I am here to tell you that revenge will not make it right, it wont change what was taken from you.  It only serves as a last attempt at trying to hold onto the pain so you DONT have to learn to heal and deal with it on your own.  It wont help you look better on the world if you get someone to champion you.  At least not for very long.  I suggest you start talking to someone in a therapeutic setting before you go off half cocked to any more lawyers.

If what you say is accurate, you havent even begun to deal with the actual pain of the rape, you are still in a state of shock so to speak.  

Revenge or no, lawyer or not, you WILL have to someday be at peace with this.  There is nothing and no one out there who will ever acheive that for you except you.

[Anonymous]

yeah, but revenge feels good......

[Anonymous]

I don't really care what anyone says about it. Sure as hell it sounds fishy, when I woke up one morning and certain memories came flooding back to me I knew what happened then, and the more I spoke about it the more clear things became. It sounds fishy to anyone because I am not able to give ALL of the details and don't trust anyone enough to do that. More or less I guess I am just relating to people here, but I have also read that others were raped while in Straight and now I don't doubt it one bit.

Although I appreciate being asked to defend my position I am not able to do that and doing so does not make what was done to me any less credible - or that I was not able to remember what happened until recently any less truthful.

While I don't really believe this is the place to make peace with the past, I am tryingin other ways. I appreciate to some extent Carmels' posts since she seems to relate to somehow being ostricized or perhaps even being molested in some way I don't know. Eitherways, I thank anyone who has offered words of kindness.


there are questions some have had to me in person and others who have asked on other forums and chat rooms, this is not a political issue. I have more questions than anyone else does. The Senior Staff member who did this to me is likely still alive and that has to account for something. We live in an age of information so he can be found.

And yes, I stated before, I have filed a statement to the police. they have informed me that an investigation is taking place. Other than that there is not alot more I can offer. this might be a spot to find common interest in some small way.

There are other forums I go to that offer live support but nothing helps me more than forgetting now that I know. It takes time to calm myself down sometimes when I think of what happened.

[Antigen]

No, darlin. It sounds fishy to me because, when I hook up w/ ppl I new only a little over two decades ago and they start telling me their memories of events I remember only vaguely, I can never be sure if I actually remember those events myself or if I'm just trying so hard that I'm building a reasonable facsimile.

But I'm not in your head. This is somethig you'll have to sort out. Don't bother trying to prove it to anyone here publicly or look to us to settle the question for you.

If it's really bugging you, I'd look up that staffer, give him a call and see what he has to say about it.

The memory of my own suffering has prevented me from ever shadowing one young soul with the superstitions of the Christian religion.
--Elizabeth Cady-Stanton

[Anonymous]

On 2005-10-22 00:35:00, Anonymous wrote:

"Oh, now THIS sounds like some real bullshit here. I really doubt you were sexually penetrated/raped in Straight chica. At best maybe your privacy was taken away which is humiliatin, but you ARE exxagerating a bit MUCH here!!!



I really don't mean to sound insensitive here, but its like that post graduate/staff member -Samantha Monroe ... that old whore was on national television and she has never once coughed up the name of her alleged rapist attackers. You would think someone would have done something by now. I just really don't buy it at all.



You were raped. Yeah, rite."

Who in the hell are you to judge this poor person?...............you sound like some pro- straight person obviously.....here...have a cup of SHUT THE FUCK UP!-ASSWIPE!