Motivating

[Anonymous]

For those of you who have finally managed to take meds and get some counseling and have made it back into the school system so you can get a better job:

What would the teacher do if you motivated a little to get called on ? Think about that for just a second. You probably wander through your life every fucking day looking for people like you. The handful of folks that you find that may have even a shred of similarity to the training you received in Straight, they are still actually nothing like you. In factual truth, you are probably nothing like the people you know and they probably CANNOT relate to you and your personal experiences and your highly personal modes of characterization and trained personality, unless you go to a coffee shop in the middle of nowhere. It has hurt you that there is noone like you anymore. You are truly, very truly, a lone star in the sky. And I don't mean that in a general sense or some thoughtful kind way. I mean this in a very real way in the way you react, respond, speak, and act around others as per your training in Straight. You are probably very militant and organized and aggressive, impulsive even, about the things you do. Noone else you know is probably the same in these ways, and if you know someoen like that you probably fight with them.

That is ONE positive thing, and there really are not many, that you can say that Straight did to you. Hell, in my own opinion I think anyone who has ever been in Straight should immediately apply for a life experience B.A. or Master's degree for drug addictions, hospitalizations, behaviour modifications and the like. I will personally back you up as a character witness, no fucking joke, as to the training you received in behavioral therapy. Think about that shit, bitch.

You're a soldier for the War on Drugs, motherfucker, and you always will be. Time to start cashing in. I'll back you.

Why don't you contact me at ReaganYouthsCreditRepair@hotmail.com

[dragonfly]

[Anonymous]

Pass what you're smokin', boy.

[Anonymous]

Yeah man, pass the dutchie to the left.

[Anonymous]

dragonfly, please state the dates of your tenure on Sibling Staff. Anything else you remember about your duties and about what happened would be very interesting. I don't think I have heard much about the Siblings side of Straight on this forum.

[dragonfly]

[Anonymous]

Motivating....that 2 years of flailing about like a retard has had some significant long term problems for my left shoulder.  I recently had my 2nd surgery to repair my ac joint.  The orthopedic surgeon has asked me if I was in an accident when I was a teenager because of the damage in my shoulder and associated arthritis.  I?ve never been in an accident and shortly after leaving str8 I started having problems with my left shoulder (medically documented).  I am 35 now and will probably have my left shoulder joint replaced in 10 years.

[Anonymous]

You bring up an important topic. There are physical repercussions to the various abuses we suffered. I believe I have both physical and emotional/mental injuries from being restrained. I was also hospitalized with a high temperature off second phase due to medical neglect, and I have wondered about the long-term effects of this as well as the effects of the infection. It was all about medical neglect. Some think I could have died, and yet my mother turned down the recommended post-recovery tests. It is a sad thing, now that I am thirty-five, to recognize clearly the extent of child abuse and neglect.

[Nonconformistlaw]

Anon said -------"What would the teacher do if you motivated a little to get called on ? Think about that for just a second. You probably wander through your life every fucking day looking for people like you. The handful of folks that you find that may have even a shred of similarity to the training you received in Straight, they are still actually nothing like you. In factual truth, you are probably nothing like the people you know and they probably CANNOT relate to you and your personal experiences and your highly personal modes of characterization and trained personality, unless you go to a coffee shop in the middle of nowhere. It has hurt you that there is noone like you anymore. You are truly, very truly, a lone star in the sky. And I don't mean that in a general sense or some thoughtful kind way. I mean this in a very real way in the way you react, respond, speak, and act around others as per your training in Straight. You are probably very militant and organized and aggressive, impulsive even, about the things you do."-----------

Ummm...when i first started college...I remember wondering "what if I motivate right now...that would freak the whole class out." And it took a little getting used to seeing the calm, unmotivated raised hands....

In the 12 years before starting college, no matter what kind of people I was hanging out with, I always noticed how different straight made me from them...after a while I just learned to focus on what I did have in common with them even  if it wasnt much. But even so...I could never get rid of the damn awareness of how different I was and that they could never comprehend who I was because of straight.

College has widened that gap so to speak...I still try to find common ground with people...but it happens less often now...the more educated the people are that I have to interact with...the more isolated I really get.....because believe me the people I have to go to school with and work with are VERY SHELTERED.

I go on about that isolated "there really is no one out there I can really relate to" feeling for a long time....anyway in college--12 years after straight...I spoke to no one for the most part, unless they engaged me for some reason...not just because I could not relate to the whole college frat/sorority crap, the age difference...but even around the "older" students, it was also because I was always very aware of how different I was...The only people I connected with on any level were two professors who took an interest in me...because they could tell I was different, but in an unusual way.....sure I was the model A student...but my motivation and drive both puzzled them, and kept me very much in my own world.

Law school's been even worse...more extremely sheltered people who are also...well lets just say incapable and unwilling to understand in any way who I am or my experience in Straight. Same thing, I am even more aware of how different I am being amongst "privileged and connected" people...and i hate it....(although at first I did attempt to find common ground....but now I know better than to try with most of them and usually dont bother anymore)

After 20 years, I am still different. Period. Here is where I am "normal."

[starry-eyed pirate]

I HEAR YA.

[dragonfly]

[Sophie]

I definately have chronic pain in the neck and shoulder area from motivating.

One benefit of my time motivating is that I can get "picked" or "called on" anytime in any situation where they ask for a volunteer.  Particularly useful when getting free tickets to something or getting to pet an exotic animal at a theme park. :grin:

[Anonymous]

You're so lucky, you still have places and occasions on which to motivate.

[Sophie]

I don't know how lucky plays into my life...  But yes, my life is good.. i've worked hard for it to be as good as it is.  Thanks for noticing.