I am so f'd up now!!!
Can't believe I am even on this... but hubby as usual has this fascination with sleep at early hours of the weekend nights.... weekend nothgts... what we all waited for... wait for...
Just di my last line..... :
: what to do, what to do?
well, nothing...
get over it!!!! go the f to bed!
DOn't knoe why.... glad this ios all I do... it is stupid though... only half of what I want...... but hopefully enough to keep me from what I want....
what the hell! what is the matter with me...
Str8 did it...
I can remember, through my 7 months of fucking them up, never off misbehaver f'ng status, cause I hated themmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they used to say that if nothing else I will never get high the same, and as I ponder that, and, hold on.... sniff a little harder, to make sure I get the last................
I realize how ffucked up...
what the fuck
hubby was up till 2 am w/ me last night, so I guess he doesn't miind that it was cause I was high...
He doesn't get high...
but he doesn't understand how dangerous this i sf or me.....
I'll drown in this...
I'll drown myself...
I knwow this is a long post, and prob i'll read it tommoroow while the f'ng EAGLES WIN THE SUPER BOWL.......(I hope)
well,
actually,
Iam about comfotably numb, so nvvnevermind
kelly
the fucking misbehaver,
Hubby is getting the fuck up, I hoe he relizes this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!