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The Seed Discussion Forum / "the rules"
« on: April 26, 2006, 01:30:00 PM »
On 2006-04-25 12:44:00, GregFL wrote:

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I remember my first confessional at open meeting. I had done a few drugs once like mesc and qualudes, but when I listed them I just knew I sounded SO hardcore because you don't say "and I tried qualudes once and got sick".instead you just list it like it was an everyday occurance.

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If, when you stood to say your name, age and what drugs you did.  If you had said I tried qualudes once and got sick do they think staff would have stopped you?

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The Seed Discussion Forum / sexual fetishes brought about by the Seed!
« on: April 26, 2006, 01:18:00 PM »
I thought you might have been my newcomer.   I wanted to apologize.  I guess I could probably apologize for yours-- we were all tentacles after all.  Though, I was pretty cruel, I think it was because I didn't get to prove myself straight in any other way.  Since I was small, and twelve myself, they said I wasn't big enough to work the front desk and most newcomers were just too old for me to have any kind of authority over so I had one poor eleven year old newcomer that I was determined to make straight really fast.  I am glad they took her out of my house after a few weeks.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / sexual fetishes brought about by the Seed!
« on: April 25, 2006, 11:10:00 AM »
Anonymous who began this thread, were you in the Cleveland seed?

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The Seed Discussion Forum / "the rules"
« on: April 25, 2006, 11:04:00 AM »
I definitely felt that way when I came into the program, equal parts fear and awe.  I exaggerated my drug use in my interview cause I wanted to impress Suzy and Scott. After I was admitted, and Scott was introducing me, saying my name and the drugs I'd done (pot and alcohol) he asked if I wanted to add any other drugs-- even though my parents had just left me in this weird place and I was really scared I had to stifle a smile.  It stroked my to my 12yr old  ego.

Had no idea what I was in for

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The Seed Discussion Forum / the seed indeed
« on: February 13, 2006, 06:45:00 PM »
Innocent, INNOCENT, and why would the fact that the group came up with it mean anything at all? We only "came up with" what we were supposed to.  It wasn't what you'd call a spontantanieos place

loving words indeed, and I've got some land you  might like to buy in florida; (ha,your probably in florida.) No checks

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The Troubled Teen Industry / A New Twist on How this Industry
« on: February 13, 2006, 10:20:00 AM »
Perhaps a program hasn't been invented yet which,

"Empowers kids to decide for themselves that they will make it."  

Does that make coercion and abuse of kids any less wrong?

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The Seed Discussion Forum / the seed indeed
« on: February 13, 2006, 10:06:00 AM »
I was wondering.  Those of you, who sang that song to the tune of greensleeves--the seed indeed the version with, "and if you do your legs I'll break."  Did you sing that in open meetings in front of parents?

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The Seed Discussion Forum / damaged beyond repair
« on: January 27, 2006, 06:53:00 PM »
I just wanted to let everyone know that I have been reading and thinking about your responses to my post.  I've tried several times to write a thoughtful follow up but have been unable to finish, still chewing I guess.  

I'll chime in when my thoughts become coherent till then reading about everyone else's experiences and beliefs is helpful.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Cleveland Seed Revisited
« on: January 25, 2006, 01:12:00 PM »
That ball field, how many times did I think of bolting accross that ball field.  Sit there on my  front row just feet away from really large windows and imagine bolting across that field.
Funny that it's a mental health building now, when ever I read of a mental hospital dayroom, I imagine it as the rap room.


Although you guys who were there later, you had your open meetings in the room I remember as the rap room.  I never went to any raps after I graduated, so I don't know if you had your raps there also.  Terricotta tiled floor, stucco walls,a fireplace on each side.  The seed really shrank at the end.  When I was there open meetings were huge events in the gym.

The downstairs was creepy.  That dark red carpet and the dark paneled walls.  After being up in the sunny room during my early group time we started having every rap downstairs later.  I don't think anyone actually said it, but I imagined that we were down there for security reasons.  So dark, it was the sort of place you'd expect torture to be performed. Oh right,it was.

 

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Cleveland chick 76-77[ This Message was edited by: NOT12NOW on 2006-01-25 10:13 ]

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The Seed Discussion Forum / damaged beyond repair
« on: January 25, 2006, 09:25:00 AM »
Damn,  I just spent a half hour writing a reply only to have it lost in cyberspace and now I am all rung out.

Thank you both of you for your comments I'll reply a bit later when I have time again.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / damaged beyond repair
« on: January 24, 2006, 05:17:00 PM »
Oops, didn't mean to post anon.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Fibro and others
« on: November 29, 2005, 09:31:00 PM »
Another post about this made me wonder, how many of us have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, CFIDs, or some other mysterios illnes.  I certianly think it's possible that the chronic stress and the rigid position caused some of my  chronic health problems.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Seed Dream
« on: November 29, 2005, 09:20:00 PM »
My favorite.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Why did cleveland branch close?
« on: November 29, 2005, 09:15:00 PM »
where you in the program anon. when?

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The Seed Discussion Forum / More Trivia
« on: November 29, 2005, 09:13:00 PM »
Dear lord, how old is she?

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