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« on: November 29, 2010, 05:44:21 PM »
Nothing drives home the fact that your parents do not want you better than the knowledge that they are going ahead with the family Christmas while keeping you locked in an illegal gulag. The program I was in took full advantage of this, encouraging us to “work the program” so that, maybe, we could “earn” our way back into our family by next year. But that is not the way I saw it. I was more inclined to view parents who would do that to their own child as parents who are not worth having. Aside from the actual act of lying to me to get me there, then leaving me there imprisoned, Christmas at the program probably did more to damage my relationship with my mother than anything else. I still had all my memories of Christmas’ past, and had a good idea what my family was doing while I was going through a hell that they will never even know about. Just the thought of all that fake ‘love’ in the program makes me want to vomit, even today. Oh, and the idea behind Christmas presents is to get something you think will make them HAPPY. Buying your son, who you’ve wrongfully imprisoned over the holiday season, a couple of shirts that you KNOW he will HATE is just a cruel joke, played on someone who is already almost suicidally depressed. Oh, how I hate those people.