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Offline Anonymous

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« on: May 15, 2005, 01:55:00 PM »
Am I the only one, or do you guys think all of us who were in Straight or KIDS or some similar confrontational program have to invest a lot of energy consciously supressing/repressing memories of things you saw and heard there that make you get upset?

Funny that my parents wouldn't let me watch a PG movie back then, but then they exposed me to far worse violence at Straight.

Anyway, I find it a constant battle.  I have a pretty good life and a family now who really loves me, but I'm always haunted.  The kids see me cry sometimes when I'm alone, and when they ask, I have to make up something silly so that they don't have to know the truth.
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« Reply #1 on: May 15, 2005, 10:01:00 PM »
I didn't think about the Straight shit  AT ALL when I was doing the junk....you know, the skag, the bad momma, the boy, Heaven, Hell, bodybag....that's the way to forget about it.....
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« Reply #2 on: May 15, 2005, 10:16:00 PM »
[ This Message was edited by: Ex5k on 2005-06-14 14:12 ]
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« Reply #3 on: May 15, 2005, 11:08:00 PM »
you are not crazy, girl.  ::heart::
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« Reply #4 on: May 17, 2005, 02:19:00 PM »
MOVE ON.  You are letting them have free rent in your mind.
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« Reply #5 on: May 21, 2005, 01:57:00 PM »
"move on", in capital letters. now that there is some premium healing for you.
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« Reply #6 on: May 21, 2005, 02:36:00 PM »
bump :em:
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« Reply #7 on: May 21, 2005, 03:16:00 PM »
bumpidy bump bump :wave:
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« Reply #8 on: May 21, 2005, 03:37:00 PM »
bump bump bump :wave:
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« Reply #9 on: June 14, 2005, 04:46:00 PM »
The truth HURTS.

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« Reply #10 on: June 16, 2005, 04:49:00 PM »
It helped me to write about it.  Things are seen in a fresh new light and have a tendency to stay on the page instead of crawling to the back of your mind waiting to ambush you when you are most vulnerable.
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« Reply #11 on: June 16, 2005, 09:45:00 PM »
I never even think about straight. It sucked but was no where near the low point of my life..
 It was fucked up but ...I dunno just doesnt seem like that big a deal anymore..
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« Reply #12 on: June 16, 2005, 09:48:00 PM »
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On 2005-06-16 18:45:00, linchpin wrote:

"I never even think about straight. It sucked but was no where near the low point of my life..

 It was fucked up but ...I dunno just doesnt seem like that big a deal anymore..
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I am with you on this one linchpin. For many years directly after the seed I was angry about it. Then about 7 years ago when we started this stuff on the internet I thought about it often and went thu some emotional ups and downs as I dealt with the memories and the realities of what happened.

Nowadays it just seems like ancient history, something negative that happened to me a long time ago..a string of unfortunate events that, mixed with the good stuff..equal out to a pretty damn good life.

The modern day programs are another matter. Some of them really piss me off..like this christian Straight for gays as an example...
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« Reply #13 on: June 16, 2005, 09:51:00 PM »
when God sent you to us
  we loved you from the start
  you were just a bit of sunshine
  from heaven to our hearts
  not just another baby
  cause since the world began
  God had something special
  For you in His plan

  That's why you're someone special
  You're the only one your kind
  God gave you a body
  and a bright healthy mind
  He had a special purpose
  that he wanted you to find
  so he made you someone special
  you'er the only one your kind...
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« Reply #14 on: June 16, 2005, 10:04:00 PM »
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On 2005-06-16 18:51:00, Anonymous wrote:

" when God sent you to us

  we loved you from the start

  you were just a bit of sunshine

  from heaven to our hearts

  not just another baby

  cause since the world began

  God had something special

  For you in His plan



  That's why you're someone special

  You're the only one your kind

  God gave you a body

  and a bright healthy mind

  He had a special purpose

  that he wanted you to find

  so he made you someone special

  you'er the only one your kind..."


Oh fuck you...
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ever fuck with someone who has nothing to lose..
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