The actual reason why I came to this forum was because I had a feeling in my heart that MMS didn't do things as they should have-legally, morally. I was unsure of myself, but I knew after all these years I was still feeling anger towards that place. It was just a bad feeling I got in my gut, you know...when something is not quite right. instinct.
I wanted to seek help, but first I wanted to see what others felt and thought about the school years after being there. For the most part I saw that most felt as I did-sad, angry, confused. While being at the school I felt the same way, but I did not speak about these emotions. I do not want to feel this way. I wish I did not have to feel this way toward the school, but I seriously cannot let go. This is not because I have some crazy blame problem or that I just want place my anger towards something, but because my mind won't allow me let go. Even in my dreams I still wonder around that campus, and feel scared, humiliated as I did back then.
My life is great now. I have a great family, but somehow that the stress of MMS still hold me back.How can I just make it go away? I came here to fulfill that wonder...but I find out that I might just be plainly insane because many claim that MMS was no trouble at all. I do not believe that those who are posting about bad experiences are posting out of hate, but just simply as a way to help themselves...understand where this is all coming from, but now I see that it is leaving everyone so confused as I am. Even though I am confused that instinct will not go away. That instinct that something was wrong/went wrong and I need to take a look at it.
So in all of that I think everyone should just back off a little because these posts are becoming too much, and now I sleep thinking about it all night. Let's not be so hyped about all this, and try to get some good night sleep.