I don't apologize. Therapy is revealing your secrets... getting them out, working through them, dealing with your shit. I had to write an entire life story of everything i'd never told anyone, and do you know how relieving that was?? secrets can be dangerous, they stew inside you... especially if you have guilt over any of it... it just stays in there and is so destructive!!! and i'm pretty sure if you didn't want to say something, you didnt' have to. no one had a gun to our heads! there were still things i didn't say after i'd left, that i really didn't want to say, so i didn't. and yeah, that showering thing is BS. even when we were on intervention, it seemed like once a week we'd all treck back to campus to shower and do laundry. and the girl with the rocks, did she say she was bruising? or was she afraid to? I know sometimes I didn't want to speak up. i had a bizarre injury that i was scared to talk about, but i finally told deb and she took me to the doctor and we took care of it. i was never told i was lying or making it up...