My whole first two phases was nothing but confrontation. "TM stand up" and the hand would start flying, and ooh ooh ooh and fingers snapping all around my face. Nothing else need be said besides TM stand up. Shit it was like a feeding frenzy of sharks. Several people knew me, even so far from home when I was signed in with one of those court orders. Didn't stop to think it might be bogus, didn't want to press my luck if it wasn't. So nobody was buying the sweet suzie look on me. Everything I did was FOS. Everything I was was FOS. Never try to say anything during a confrontation. Even a yes or no will start the frenzy again. Of course, in between somebody is screaming at me, how I lied, how I was a slut, this from my brother, further cooberated by acquaintences from my druggie past. Or the people I was staying with. Topic is unimportant here, they -the group as a thing- or the staff- could find some point about anybody. I did it too when I reached the upper phases. The group was a mob out for blood. Encouraged by the staffer leading the rap. Topic...FOS...TM stand up
I never misbehaved. When I got there, I was one of them *strong 5th phasers* meaning I was mean when I was told to be just like a good little zombie. but I did get started over from 5th phase, for telling a lie about days off when my parents had come down for a visit. I got put on a no-phase after two sisters split from their house on their second night back home on second phase. Each time it was a FOS rap and TM stand up that they nailed me. Can't remember if it was before or after the pre-staff training. It was in St. Pete, Jim S. Always scared the shit out of me.
I laughed at Jim. I knew they were gonna start me over. I could see it on all the staff faces. Shit haven't thought about this in a long time...He was so smug. Surprised I still boil over this. 13 or 14 months gone poof, man, I'll never get out of here. Then again when those Seabold girls took off, what ever happened to them? I told the next chain of command staff just like a good zombie, they were gonna do it, they ditched me easily in the line up after the open meeting, and I told them again. When it happened, they split during one of my 4min showers. Took the dog so he wouldn't bark, mom was snoozing. I got a no phase-essentially newcomer status- from another smug face on Jim S. god endless confrontation for a couple of months finally allowed to go back to 3d again. That cost me the only varsity letter I ever could have gotten. not being a jock, that was something to me, I was on the swim team at St Pete HS.
Yep, the FOS rap always brought up dread in me, even when I was dishing out. Did plenty of that as I recall. Part of the group, the mob, just like a good little zombie.
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