On 2005-03-11 15:20:00, formerly known as wrote:
no, i hate myself for that but friends have suggested to me that i am being too hard on myself.
how i could have been so terrified of the other phasers i do not know.
You probably are being too hard on yourself. We were afraid of each other because that's how humans, especially young humans, behave in groups. Part of maturity is learning, either overtly or not, how to navigate that whole mess while inventing some kind of independence and self determination. We weren't there yet, nowhere near. We got blindsided. Good people, even wonderful people, often got taken in by the slight of mind.
If there is a God, he is a malign thug.
--Samuel Clemens "Mark Twain", American author and humorist