I've never really considered much the inner workings of the mind of a misbehavior. It's like another cult or group in and of itself... I know that they liked me, though. One of my best friends was a misbehavior. Weird...huh. She actually graduated before me. She'd been there longer than me, and they finally got her. She'd carve on her arms daily. She didn?t bathe because she wouldn't let the girls watch. Luckily, my aunt's house had this huge whirlpool bathtub with glass doors to enclose around it. There was a marble slam going around the rim to sit on. It was big enough to sit in there and take turns with the detachable showerhead. It also had a ?steam room? function, so it got all fogged up in there. I think that helped her feel more comfortable. I even let her shave.
I guess I just thought I'd get out faster if I went along with the craziness. I hated every second of it, but I worked my program like a good little drone. That?s kind of why I started this thread. For me, flipping off staff, or 5th phasers I hated was my only major rebellion. I can also think of 1 unchecked drop-off, but I think I reported it . Oh, and thoughts. Lot?s of judgmental, angry thoughts.