Thank you Mary for your reply. I think I understand a little more about why you feel the way you do.
You said in your posting that you would reply to Ivy Ridge parents that believed nothing happened with "I am glad it didnt happen to your child". Well, I am going to say that to you now. I am glad it didn't happen to Chris.
As to the contradictions, I can understand why that would be confusing but think about it for a moment.
If you read up on cult conditioning and mind control it is not so confusing. I believe you said you were a Christian correct? In your discussions with other members of your church, have you not discussed the dangers of cults and how good people can fall victim to the cult's methods? It is real, you know it is but some cults use the same God to justify their methods and its a little harder to see!
This is what I am asking you to consider as to one of the reasons why there might be the contradictions. The kids I believe are still under the control of the Sudweeks cannot speak out at this time either out of fear or a misguided belief in "the family" that must be upheld because letting it down would cause the family harm and themselves great emotional pain. It IS painful when you wake up.
The Sudweeks never laid a finger on me when I knew them. That does not mean they did not harm me. They did and they knew what they were doing when they did it. It was real and it cost me years of trouble with trust, self esteem and emotional growth.
I finally had the strength to break free of the effects but part of me is still that young woman who didn't understand. As I grew up and realised what had REALLY happened and not what I was conditioned to think happened, I had to speak out because I didnt want any other kid to have to spend years trying to figure it out like I did.
I often say I wish they HAD beaten me because at least then I would have had the bruises which would have left no doubt as to what had happened. Just like Chris. He had bruises. There was no doubt. I on the other hand only have some memories of words and actions that only I witnessed. No one to help me to sort it out but myself and no bruises to make it clear as to what had happened.
Anyhow, That is a little food for thought for you.