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Can someone educate me about the RAP session

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blownawaytheidahoway:

--- Quote ---On 2005-02-17 12:44:00, Anonymous wrote:

"A lot of it I noticed had to do with the staff that ran them.  The tone of the rap was definatly set by the facilitator.  I know I for sure had a preference when it came to whose rap I wanted to be in, plenty of staff whose raps I avoided at all cost (but unfortunatly at the end of the day you pretty much have no choice).  Some staff had relaxed sessions, some had extremely loud and intense sessions (that I seriously question the usefulness of).



I remember one staff member imparticularly whose raps I could not stand to be in since he insisted on holding each session yelling at the top of his lungs and was not satisfied untill half the room was yelling at the floor.  Sometimes you just did it so you didn't have to listen to the nonsense that spewed out of his mouth.



Rap lugs were always amusing, and for the most part not funny.



The above poster is right, there definatly were weird feelings associated with going into raps like you were about to witnes something bad.  A lot of kids feared them, I of course grew up being yelled at so it was nothing new to me.  The most amusing aspects were definatly the older student bullying that occured.  This was even more so present in RMA (the old RMA), but I think that was the result of the expectation of the unstable staff that facilitated those sessions.  In the end, I think the affect the rap had on a kid depended on how much he feared his indictors.



CHINSK

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While I concurr that going into a rap with a staff that you feared or that you knew was not satisfied util as you described, half or more of the students had "done work", going into a rap with a staff you liked only to get blownaway by that staff because THEY were advised that they needed to do that sucked too. Back to the uncertainty again, I guess. How older students did their thing is a testament to the intricacies of the delicate matter of keeping your skin and sanity there. If you didn't do work you were lying about something. If you did too much you were lying about something. Being full of shit, and not knowing what was real at the same time WAS nirvana there. I've been thinking for a long time that the platitudes of what a "succesful" RMA student were and one that was "stuggling" are in themselves confusing. And THAT was encouraged. "You are right where you need to be". Remember that? And being rewarded out of the blue just when you thought that everyone just KNEW you were "full of shit". The gummut was run there on confusing the prey. I was sure I was going to get nailed in a rap sometimes just to have "sunshine blown up my ass" about how I was maturing and really coming to my own just then. Man...it was so confusing, and it still is. Am I doing well, or am I struggling? Too much introspection, way too fast and too early.

NivekOgre:
I don't know if there are successful students. Many of the ones I was in with committed suicide since.

Anonymous:
:question:  That is insane? John was the only one kid who killed himself at RMA. I don't believe it was because of a rap.

lookatmenowbitch:
they pull it together coz they shut down....how dumb r u???i never cried in raps unless they brought up one of my most horrible insecurities... they loved to see us cry...every time they would bring up the fact that i threw up and that i felt like i needed to be skinny to get guys..and THEN go on the fact that i was a slut...they seemed to enjoy when i cried...they would smile when i did and then theyd move on to someone else,...so shut up about YOUR whineyness about ours ...because we have a right to whine...i went there from 2002 to 2004... i will always remember the days they annihalated me for going to the hospital... they yelled at me for my problems and loved it when i cried... they never helped me grow strong...
just more weak with a hardened face

Intrinsic_Entropy:
Haha, i remember RAPS fondly. I had quite a few indictments over my 2 years at BCA, several due to the fact that I would fall asleep during the RAP sessions. Man, talk about a way to piss the staff off.

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