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Offline jackson nash

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Jackson Nash 92-95
« on: January 12, 2005, 02:57:00 PM »
Hello my friends,

It is interesting to think that there was nothing like this forum board when I first got to CEDU. How glad I am to have the chance to reach out and attempt to reconnect with lost friends.
As I said, I was at CEDU from 92-95, graduated, was pretty angry for a long time, and now want nothing more than to hear from people and know that others have made it and are still alive.
I think about the people who have died: Beau Riddle, Sacheen Dobson, Rory Rudy, Janie Maile, John Inman, to name a few, and my heart breaks for them, their friends and families.
I think about the wonderful people who have disappeared from my life: Chris Webb, John Davidson, Christina Bernal, Mark Lungren, David Olshansky, Pat Smith, Kate Crawford...
I want these people back.
I cannot say that CEDU is the reason that they are gone, but I know that applying a formula designed for junkies to children certainly did not help those who were already fragile.
When I think about what could have been done differently at that school, about how a lighter, more caring approach could have helped far more and turned away far fewer; well it is just another reason to mourn.
But fuck mourning, I just want closure.
If you read this and the spirit moves you, please reply and let me know how you are, and if you know anything about anyone.
So here's to our lost childhood, and here's to a brighter future.
My love and respect to all,
Jackson Nash
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« Reply #1 on: January 13, 2005, 01:23:00 AM »
I know im not one of the ones you mentioned, but i attended after you..You always were a funny guy, made my stay a little less hellish..

This is Michael Cosgrove, remember me?

i always got the impression that i annoyed you, but who can say..anyways good luck on the closure thingy! I say this because a large majority of this site is silly little trolls being fed by naive forum goers, and the occasional OmGzOrZ!!1!!Shift+1!! lets all sue the school threads..but hey..anything can happen..

So how are things for you man?

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« Reply #2 on: January 13, 2005, 10:10:00 AM »
Beau Riddle was the most talented pianist I've ever heard.  I'll never forget hearing him play the "Revolutionary Etude" by Frederick Chopin.

I had a crush on Sassheen.  I remember telling her how cute I though it was when girls wore ponytails, and I remember her wearing one all the time, and I remember kissing her on the top of her head the day I graduated.  I'm sad to hear about it.

Mark Lungren was my buddy.  I remember I left him my set of the "Lord of the Rings" trilogy.  He was a big guy, with a really big heart.  Damn!

Rory Rudy was my little brother there.  He was a great kid.  I know he's missed.

Very sad news, Jackson.  I'm really sad to hear about that.
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« Reply #3 on: January 13, 2005, 10:12:00 AM »
I saw John Davidson, once near Los Angeles CA.  I remember David Olshansky- he ran my fulltime even though I used to be his dormhead.  Cristina Bernal was one tough chick.  The good old days...
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« Reply #4 on: January 13, 2005, 11:11:00 AM »
I didn't know Rory and Janie had passed away. Janie started at the middle school at the same time I started at the high school. That was right when the middle school first opened, in 1991. When she moved to the high school, they made me her big sister. Can you imagine going from the middle school to the high school?

So many people I wonder about- Dave Pace, James Duan, Pam Hughes, Kesi Dunlop, Malia Levin, Michelle Buck, Michelle Weinberg (she wasn't in my peer group- left cedu before graduating), Hilary Horvat, Tina Rahman, and many others. Some I wonder out of morbid curiousity.... These people were the human element of cedu. Even if we drove one another crazy while we were there, they were subjected to the same abuses I was (though some not quite as harshly....).
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« Reply #5 on: January 13, 2005, 11:20:00 AM »
Vicki, I remember all those people.  I hope they're all doing okay.
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« Reply #6 on: January 13, 2005, 01:44:00 PM »
I was Beau Riddle's dorm head right before i split cedu for good.  He was a very intelligent, Talented, caring, and fun person.  I liked
him.  He always made me laugh.  Beau really
had a lot going for him.  Never in a
million years would I have suspected
that Beau would commit suicide...

I am deeply saddened by this news.
I can't help but feel that Beau's experiences
at Cedu had something to do with this.

My sincerest condolences to Beau's Family and all those who were close to him.

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« Reply #7 on: January 14, 2005, 02:35:00 PM »
how did they die, if you don't mind me asking besides Beau's sad suicide?  How old was he?  Was he still using?
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« Reply #8 on: January 28, 2005, 03:31:00 PM »
I came across this website by accident while checking the placement of my firms site.  I found a message posted from an old friend of mine, Jackson N., where he lamented: ?I think about the wonderful people who have disappeared from my life.?  Having never seen this site before, or even attempted to do any internet searches on the CEDU topic, I have to say that I spent some time over the last couple days reading what has been posted, and felt as though I needed to post my own message in hopes to reach out to Jackson and the other people who have disappeared from my life.

I was sent to CEDU around 15 years ago, at age 17, and as a senior in high school.  I spent just under 2 ½ years there, most of the time wishing I wasn?t there.   I had several excursions from the campus without the permission of the staff, the farthest took me all the way to Colorado.  But all in all, after all considerations, I ultimately choose to stick through the program and see where it took me.

The thing that hurt me the most about being at CEDU, while I was there and also for a period of time after, was loosing my friends, the ones I had since 1st grade, the ones that I planed on going to college with, and growing old with.  By the time I graduated CEDU my childhood friends were scattered all over America in various colleges and states, all in their junior years.  It was hard to catch up, so I made my own way after CEDU, went to the University of Miami, FL and then to law school.  I started my life anew, making new friends along the way, and what I found out is that as I grew older my childhood friends started to move back to Chicago, and the ones that didn?t move back would come back and visit.  Time had a way of healing and making things right.

So here I am, back in Chicago with new friends and old.  After a four year relationship I am engaged to my best friend with a wedding coming up in June 2005.  I have a nice law practice where I concentrate solely on criminal defense.  I dabble in the restaurant/nightclub/bar business, mostly just for the fun of it.  I spend most of my summers on my boat on Lake Michigan and most of my winters counting the days until summer.  I really don?t have anything much to complain about.  My family is all healthy and well.  I wake up happy everyday.

About the CEDU experience I am not going to express my opinion either way, as in reading the messages posted on this website and reading the conflicting views I don?t feel that my opinion would make much difference to anyone.  My purpose for this email is to say hello and hopefully reestablish a connection with some people after allowing too much time to escape us.

I am saddened by the deaths of people I knew and those who I considered friends.  My heart truly goes out to them and their families.

I thank Jackson for reaching out for me in his message, as I also wish to hear from people whose faces I haven?t seen in ages.  I remain close and have frequent contact with only a couple CEDU graduates, namely Dustin F., and Brad V..  I have over the years had sight contact with others, Charles B., Amanda T., Carrie B..  But there are others whose names whisper in my head every now and again and I hope and pray they are doing well in life.  Justin L., Pat S., Nat W., David Y., David P., Lily M., Matt D., Bobby D., Shannon K., and many others?

I leave only this message: I miss you and hope your lives are all that you dreamed they could be.

Love, David O.
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« Reply #9 on: January 28, 2005, 05:01:00 PM »
Just wanted to say that it's nice to hear from more people who were there at the same time I was, regardless if they agree or not with how I feel about the program.

Victoria
Cedu class of december 1993
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« Reply #10 on: January 31, 2005, 08:13:00 AM »
I never did like you,DAVID O.  Good Riddance.
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« Reply #11 on: February 13, 2005, 04:57:00 AM »
Dude Jackson,

there wasn't even THE INTERNET when you were at CEDU :smile:

Trivia as to who this person was:

1. You were like a big brother to me
2. I refused a lot, ran away, got off-campus stored at some bounty hunters house, ran away again, went to Ascent, went to RMA in Idaho.
3. I liked computers a lot.
4. Anyhow you made CEDU a much more tolerable place for me, so thank you for that. I will drop you a line.

-S
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« Reply #12 on: February 22, 2005, 08:37:00 PM »
Hey Jackson,

Just saw your post on this site? I was on the other side of Cedu, I guess being faculty and all.
I started working there just a short time before your graduation so I guess you could say it was your peer group that helped me out some and got me adjusted to Cedu.  
I stayed around for about 3 years before moving on to some other life pursuits.  But did want to mention I do think that Cedu got a little gentler after you left.  Maybe that is just a staff perspective?? Since I was able to choose to be there and students didn?t have much choice really?  
Anyway, for what it is worth I relate to feeling disconnected  from Cedu now, there are a few students and a couple staff I keep in touch with infrequently. It feels like another lifetime sometimes.  
Mostly, I miss Wilderness trips!  Anyway,  good to see your post.  Hope all is well with you.

Peace,
Elisabeth Maxwell (Gonella)
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« Reply #13 on: February 23, 2005, 12:49:00 AM »
I remember you
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« Reply #14 on: March 01, 2005, 12:48:00 AM »
Beau wasn't using anymore. He was staying with his father in London. His family in CT ousted him after he came out.
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