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Anonymous:
TRUE

cleveland:
Yes, I will testify to that from personal experience. I had long had 'feelings' for someone who also happened to be a staff member. In my dreams I would be made a staff member too and she would love me of course and we would live happily ever after - or something like that, it was unclear because I only knew of three married couples at this time - I had been 'straight' for about six years. I wasn't a member of the inner circle or anything like that but I thought staff respected me. Anyway, months of self-torture over this and I finally worked up the nerve to go to staff with it. I remember sitting in a rap session obsessing on it and I finally got the attention of a staff member at the side of the group. AS if in a dream I went to the back office with the staff member and when he said, what's wrong? I blurted out that I had strong feeling for someone and thought maybe I'd like to ask her on a date or something like that. He said, I'll get right backt to you, go back to the group. I sat there on pins and needles. Finally he calls me back and says, you know, so-and-so loves everyone, maybe you just need to focus on yourself. All the time he's looking at me like I'm crazy. I was crushed.

A year later I got an anniversary card signed by all the girls. The one I had feelings for just wrote, 'seven years is a long time'. That was it. I was like, what am I doing here? I left soon after.

That's my sad story. Fortunately for me, I am married now and have a child on the way. Relationships are difficult for anyone but add needing to tell your potential partner that you spent seven celebate years sitting on a chair in a warehouse in Broward County!

GregFL:
That is just such an unreal story, the amount of control you long timers had exerted on even your emotional feelings for others.

Anyone else have a story about "guy/chick relationships" during the seed?

Anonymous:
don't understand. what would happen at seed if u just cose to ask soeone out...maybe some did not like u for that, but i'm sure they would've eventually accepted.. what about decisions on careers. . .you could be whatever u wanted, right? or seeing family and going out with them. . .I mean graduates did not have toask permission to vist family or go on vacation, right? What convinced graduates on the logic of having to ask strannge adults for their advice, don't get it?

Somejoker:
Anon, where you in the Seed? If so, when and where?

Thank you.  BTW, you still in touch with anyone from the seed down In Ft Lauderdale?

Is that where you live now?

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