:scared: I WAS SO SCARED I DEVELOPED NERVOUS TICKS THE SECOND DAY I WAS THERE. I WAS AFRAID I WOULD LOOK UP WHEN I WASN'T SUPPOSED TO, OR OPEN MY EYES TO SOON BEFORE THE AMEN WAS FINISHED. I COULDN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT BECAUSE AS SOON AS I FINALLY WENT TO SLEEP WE WOULD BE WOKE UP AND YELLED AT FOR SOME SMALL THING THAT THEY SAID WAS A SIN. EVERY THING WAS A SIN. TOUCHING OUR HAIR OR PICKING A ZIT OR BITING NAILS,AND SEEING OUR REFLECTION. WE WERE NOT ALOUD TO TALK OR SMILE UNLESS WE HAD GUEST THERE. WE COULDN'T SING UNLESS WE HAD GUEST. THAT'S THE ONLY TIME WE HAD DECENT FOOD TOO. I FELT SO ALONE AND UNCARED FOR BY THE STAFF. OUR BUDDYERS PUNISHED US ANY TIME THEY WANTED TO FOR TINY VIOLATIONS. I OUNCE ASK FOR THE RULE BOOK, AND RECEIVED LINES TO WRITE FOR ASKING. IT WAS CRAZY, YOU WERE TOLD THAT YOU ARE NOT WORTHY FOR ANY THING. WE COULDN'T EVEN LOOK AT THE OCEAN BECAUSE THAT WAS A PREVELIDGE TOO. I WE LOOKING SLEEPY AT THE CHURCH SERMON, WE WERE MADE TO STAND UP THE WHOLE TIME. I WAS TOLD BECAUSE IT WAS A CHRISTIAN PLACE, I WOULD BE TREATED WITH LOVE, AND CARING STAFF. WHAT A JOKE! THEY ACTED LIKE THEY HATED US, AND WE WERE NOT ALOUD TO TALK TO THEM LIKE MY PARENTS SAID I COULD. THEY TOLD US THEY COULD HAVE COUNCELING ANY TIME WE WANTED TO TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT OUR PROBLEMS. I DIDN'T GET TO KNOW ANY OF THE OTHER KIDS UNTIL THE MEXICAN OFFICALS CAME, AND WE WERE ALOUD TO TALK. WERE WE SO HAPPY TO SEE THEM. I STILL HAVEN'T HAD A MENSTRUAL PERIOD, AND MOM THINKS IT'S BECAUSE OF THE ORNAGE PILL THEY GAVE US EVERY MORNING. THE STAFF ATE DIFFERNT FOOD THAN WE DID. ONE TIME A PARENT SENT A LARGE PLATTER OF COOKIES FOR ALL OF US, AND THE STAFF ATE THEM ALL. THEY OFTEN TURNED OFF THE FILTER SYSTEM, AND WERE TOLD NOT TO DRINK OUT OF THE FACETS. WE WERE ONLY GIVEN A SMALL AMOUNT OF WATER EVERY DAY. I WAS ALWAYS THIRSTY. IN THE DORM, I SAY A GIRL SLEEPING ON ONLY A BUNK BOARD BECAUSE THEY TOOK HER BLANKETS, AND MATTRESS AWAY. I FELT SO SORRY FOR HER. WE COULDN'T GO TO THE BATHROOM WHEN WE HAD TO, AND HAD TO WAIT UNTIL SHOWER A LOT. SOME OF US HAD ACCIDENTS, AND THEN WERE HUMILATED FOR IT. I HAD TO WRITE SEVERAL LETTERS OVER BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T LIKE WHEN I TRIED TO TELL MY PARENTS WHAT WAS GOING ON. I COULDN'T SLEEP IN MY ROOM ALONE FOR A WEEK AFTER I GOT HOME. I AM SO MIXED UP ABOUT GOD TOO BECAUSE THEY SAID EVERY THING WAS A SIN, AND I WAS A SINNER AND WOULDN'T GO TO HEAVEN. I CRIED A LOT, AND WAS YELLED AT, AND GIVEN MORE SENTENCES TO WRITE. I FELT LIKE I COULD NEVER GET DONE BECAUSE I HAD SO MANY I COULD NEVER GO TO FUN FRIDAY. I CAN'T THINK OF ONE NICE THING TO SAY ABOUT GENENIS BY THE SEA. WE HAD CAMERAS IN EVERY ROOM, AND EVEN IN THE SHOWERS AND DRESSING CLOSET. WE COULD NEVER HAVE EVEN ONE MONENT ALONE EXCEPT IN THE TOILET WHICH WAS ALSO TIMED. I GOT BAD HEMRODES FROM STRAING SO MUCH TO GET DONE SO I WOULDN'T GET MORE LINES. I LOOKED YELLOW WHEN I CAME HOME, AND MY FACE WAS SO BROKE OUT BECAUSE THEY SAID IT WAS A PREVILEDGE TO WASH MY FACE AND BRUSH MY TEETH. THEY WOULDN'T LET US DO THE BASIC THINGS TO KEEP CLEAN. I HOPE THAT SCHOOL STAYS CLOSED FOREVER, AND ALSO THE OTHER ONE IN FLORIDA OWENED BY MIKE PALMER. VICTORY ACADAMEY. SOME OF THE GIRLS HAD COME FROM THERE, AND SAID IT WAS EVER WORSE. I NEED HELP TO GET OVER MY MIXED UP FEELINGS AND FEAR THAT I NEVER HAD BEFORE I WENT THERE. HAD TO TELL ALL OF THIS TO SOMEONE. STILL HURTING
