Some of my best memories were made while I was at RMA -- several of my friendships, the Wilderness Challenge, and the I And Me to name a few.
My overall impression of my RMA years is a good one. I learned that I could have friends and that I could be a good friend, I learned to build a sense of family, I learned that I didn't need to count on my blood relatives to get my emotional needs met, I learned that other people had gone through some really tough shit too, and I learned that many people have moments when they feel utterly alone and cut off. The skills I learned there I credit with helping me to build the life that I have today, and life now is the best that it ever has been.
RMA was also a very harsh place to grow up and the way I learned to interact with others, and myself, particularly when emotionally vulnerable, was not kind. There was never any room to slip up or to take small steps in a direction. I also lost any sense of balance for several years -- things were either good or bad, right or wrong, life or death etc. While that way of looking at the world served me when I really was at moments of life or death, it failed to help me in continuing to develop as an adult. I couldn't be patient with myself or anyone else because everything felt like it had immediate consequences ? everything had equal importance and there was a constant push TO DO something. It was a terrible way to live in many ways and my work in recent years has been about learning to be comfortable with ambivalence and to practice patience.
Best, M