How many women out there were told that w/out straight they would become druggie whores??
I was and I have to tell you it realy fucked with myself image. I am always trying to prove that I am not and when I finaly get into a relationship all that flows through my head is that "HE KNOWS" I am a druggie whore.
But I am not I am not a druggie whore I am a good person with a responsible sex life I don't sell my body I don't use it to get things. I don't use sex as a weapon. I don't!!! But still I feel like the druggie whore straight said I would be. I realy hate this in me. I don't know what to do. I just don't know what to do.
Maybe it is just that I should stay alone and let it lay where it is, I don't know. I wish I did.
But I hate it I hate how the old feelings of despaire and sadness creep into my heart now and then I try so hard to just forget about it and let it go. I am productive I do go out I am active. Then one day after a few months BAM!!!! For no reason it all just wells up and I can't help but implode.
I posted this anon due to the fact I do not need personal attack.
Thanks