new around here - but I've been thinking.
it's obvious that some of the practices of cedu are abusive, we all experienced that and if you dont see it then you're just some kinda blind. on the other hand, it does help *some* people. I remember after ascent i was f*cked up. they should NEVER have sent me there, it broke me, i couldnt talk for like 8 months without breaking down- felt like some kinda vaccuum had just been weilded on me and took away everything- it was not healthy and it was not theraputic and it was "mind rape" and it was totally wrong, every second of it, especially conciously watching staff that i knew didnt agree with what was happening stand by and watch seemingly helpless. on the other hand, i know some kids who went to ascent and stopped doing stupid sh*t, had a sense of courage when they came back and it actually helped them. anyhow, i was talking to theresa one day and she said yeah, they screwed up on you,- apparently there is a screening process because some kids are not the right emotional type for the place, and (this is the worst part) some kids slip through the cracks: some kids should not have been there, even by their standards. its like the death penalty or something "whoops, you were innocent" and nobody even gets a sorry.
i think cedu might be like that, and parts of it better for everyone and parts of it not good for anyone except a dangerous few. Because i know people that it helped, and they arnt pro-cedu brainwashees, they just kids livin. anyhow, i guess some parts of northwest helped me and i did learn some stuff that i didnt learn growing up in my psycho family about how to love and stuff and some parts i despise with all my heart, they make me feel sick to know that people like that have any form of power over any kids who might be screwed up anyway and these idiots are let loose on this twisted sadomasochistic power trip against people who maybe they are scared or or maybe they have some internal resentment or some sh*t but thats not fair and it should not be happening, not to anybody.