I've been outside of the cedu bubble for about two in a half years now. Sometimes it doesnt even seem like that much time has already gone by, because of the fact that I've been living in the outside world (or referred to as the "outs" while I was in attendance at BCA")and things go by much faster than the usual average ground hogs day of a cedu school. Now I'm not implying that things would not become exciting(raps, propheets, disclosure circles, people pulling pranks in the dorms) it's just that things at cedu are really Monotonous, which I think is one of their greatest strengths. It's something that I want to put into a book, which I want to collaborate with others who have gone through the cedu experience to express. See, my story I realized is just one small grain of sand in the whole tale. Reading all these other posts, not just about former students, but staff members who saw first hand what it was really like-must have a say in some sort of document that could get into the mainstream. That yes, their is indeed mind controlling cult schools out there, wanting to rip off parents by having unqualified councilors try to mold their children into the so called righteous cedu poster child. I know because at one point in my life I was like that. I'll be honest, some of what cedu has to offer is actually good. For instance, sometimes young people need to get away from their parents, to be out on their own. Yet, they do not need someone constantly badgering them about how if they dont live a life of "being in agreement" they will fall back into their negative patterns.
Now, I'll be fair with my argument. I'll look it through the eyes of a councilor that would be working at a cedu school. I would probably say something along the lines that their needs to be discipline, that the kids need to know who is in control, and that the councilors are there to not hurt but help them in their growth to adulthood. That this is for their own good, the pressure to conform to the cedu mold-to feel accepted not just by staff but from other cedu students who have accepted it so their stay may not be so painful. Look at those who rebeled, they were labeled, thrown into jumpsuits, constantly badgered. Now, I'm not saying that being a trouble maker was the best idea, in fact at the time I was a advocate against this kind of negative behavior that certain individuals represented. Why? Because I thought that if their were more delinquents running amuck, that the staff would crack down not just on them-but everyone. Which did happen. It sucked. All I wanted to do was watch cartoons, play frisbee, and stay away from trouble.
In my entire stay at BCA, I only was on a few restrictions, never put into a jumpsuit-and never got hauled to ascent. In all honesty, I probably have one of the most uninteresting stories out of anyone, because I never did anything really "out of agreement" except bring back some anime tapes that were not stated on my home visit agreements (which I tried to sneak into the school)-and had me put onto a full time. Reading about the experiences of others is what really gets me riled about cedu though. You can try to break me down all you want, but when it came to my friends getting hurt, is what really pissed me off.
Anyone who knows me will know who this is, it's rather obvious. I'm not afraid of cedu at all anymore, I'm in a special ops unit with the army, and I'm doing everything I can to live a descent life. I want to hear more about others experiences, to see if anyone is interested in one day writing a book filled with short stories about experiences they had while they were in attendance at one of the cedu schools. Hope to hear if anyone is interested, take care-out.
