I'm so sorry to read your story! You don't say anythng about your mom. Is she supportive of you? Evidently not.
Ginger very wise. I've read many of her posts. Heed her advice and get on with your life. Are you almost 18? If not, you will be!
Your life is yours. If you let an asshole get you upset, you are actually handing control of your emotional life to him. Does that make sense? I know it's hard, but your life is YOUR life. You get out there and do well in school and find something you love and do it like hell. Be kind, work hard, and do the right thing.
As Ginger said, the people who know you will know what is a lie about you and what is true. Hold your life, your intelligence, your talents as the best thing you have!
Also, expect him to be a complete jerk. If you expect him to be horrible, you'll never be surprised! Don't tell yourself that he shouldn't treat you that way, etc. Tell yourself, "well, there he goes again, being himself."
I wonder if a part of what you're dealing with is the fact that your mom chose him and it may feel like abandonment for her to stay with him. If he's abusive - if he beat you up - it's her job to kick his sorry ass out and protect you. If she's not, then that may cause you to feel like she chose him over you.
I hope you'll just develop all the great things about you and let go of hoping something will change. The only thing you have control over - the only thing you can change - is you. Your beliefs and feelings. Your actions. If you believe he should not treat you that way, you'll be upset. I'm repeating myself!
Just work at developing yourself, appreciate the good things about you, and don't get pregnant! :scared:
You can make your life a wonderful thing. The best revenge is doing well.
Good luck to you, Dear!
On 2004-04-09 13:38:00, socialdeviant wrote:
"My stepdad is a complete asshole, who lied his way for my to get shoved into Northwest Behavioral Center, then kicked me out, and now i am living with my sister (that part is cool). but he told my exboyfriend that i said he raped me, told my mom i was a slut, and told my brothers and sisters all of the above and more. now my brothers and sisters did not believe most of the bs, but the fact is, my stepdad still said it. he is such a hypocritical fuck, and sooo full of shit. he has ruined so much in my life, and now i am expected to just be ok with that now that i am out of 'treatment' :mad: to top it all of the bastard beat the shit out of me before sending me to treatment, spread rumors about me through a very small town, made my depression into a show (said i cut myself for attention, even though i hid it for 4 years), and told me i was nothing and no one would ever love me, which is fine, because apparently i am not able to love anyone myself. how the fuck am i supposed to deal with him and my family, who comes to his defense in his presence, but talks crap behind his back, and am i the only one with the balls to stand up to him? yes, and that has put me on the with my family. help. sorry so long...
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