My first year after Elan was very difficult for me, not only 'cause I had to adapt to being back in a regular society, but also 'cause I was all alone in a different country. The point is, for a year or so I got back to doing the same shit I was doing before Elan, that is until my O.D.
After leaving the Emergency room, I was told I had to stay in the hospital for three days for mental evaluation according to the law. I kept thinking to myself "this is gonna be worse than Elan, I better behave". It felt like a summer camp compared to Elan, they let me do whatever I wanted, they let my family and friends stay there after visiting hours and they even gave us free cigarrettes. After two days (not three), they let me out.
I think this is when I decided to change for myself. Throughout all my stay in Elan, there wasn't a single day in which I did not think of drugs. Elan didn't change my mind set about them, and neither did the psychiatrists in the hospital. I changed after life has kicked me in the ass. I changed because I wanted to grow up and no one could take this decision for me.
I ain't no saint, but I'm happy to say I've been away from cocain for 2 and a half years and I have complete control over my life now.
How did you guys do in your first year after Elan? Was it as hard?
Peace!