you know there were actually 2 people i adored at elan. dave and Hirem. Hirem was my ULTIMATE favorite! I didnt like have a crush on him, i just REALLy trusted him, I thought he was trying to help me through the program, i thought he was like ON MY SIDE...kind of thng. I thought sometimes, he could see THROUGH me, and was seeing my pain. I thought, he felt bad when mis-treatment was going on, but couldnt verbalize it...I thought Dave was like that too... One day, Dave really pissed me off...I saw through him and realized exactlly what someone on here wrote about him, i dont remember a name, but it was something in terms like he only wanted a pay check. or maybe was scared to speak up bc we were gonna come and go...I was sad...when I dipped out of elan, and wrote to Hirem like 1 yr or more later, that I was doing really well. I wrote him, I told him I have no kids am not married, am very independent, I told him I was going to college, in honors classes, and was modeling and in films and had an excellent relationship with my family.and on and on and he never wrote back. it was like i disappeared in to thin air. I f he ever really cared about me, or was proud of me, he would have written back.